FindingSelf22
Junior Member

Finding:
Glad to hear you're busy and doing well, esp that things are going better than you thought they might.
I'm soo good right now. Hard to explain, but am feeling so much growth and opening. No, I've not fallen in love , but am getting back to the point where I think I might be able to again. Someday, anyway.
Take care, study hard - we need all the honest lawyers we can get Pat

How things going ?
Pat

Finding: An early Congratulations on being a Grad! and best wishes w/ tha LSAT !!
Do hope you're doing well. Saw your post re: dating and have to agree that waiting a bit is prob best. Esp since you'll have your hands full with school soon.
Good travels, dear!!
Pat

OOPS! I meant to say "Snuffie" not "Sofie" - need more coffee

Hey Finding, check out the post that Sofie made on the 'relationship' forum yesterday. And LanaBear's response as well. LB is an especially wise person, always has great insights.
Pat

sorry - first part o message is below...
it doesn' look or feel like much goin on. All the activity is internal, invisible, unfelt. Like your screen name here, you gotta find out who you are first. How else will future love (s) know who you are. Ok, 'nuf rambln.. you used to have to have 30 posts b4 being able to blog or send pvt msg's, don't know if that' still the case. It's a way to encourage participation from the group. So wade on in there, dear. Share your perspective and life knowledge. Take care, hun, have a wonderful day and watch the sun come up every time ya can.

Good morn'n Finding ! Hoping your day will be bright an beautiful! Do you watch the sunrise in the a.m.'s? I'm outside almost every day to see it... magical time of day.
Re: I have came to the conclusion that love does not exits anymore but I think that is just the broken heart of mine talking yes, that's your broken heart, nothing more. You may be in a time of waiting right now, but believe love will come again, and better than before. I'm ' in between' right now myself, no SO but believe there will be someone for me when the time is right. Same for you. I've come to think these 'between' times are where we do real growing - in the stillness. I do weight lifting and take some lessons from that. One doesn't grow strength when doing the workout, but during the resting times the next day. Same for our spirit, I think. From outside

ha ha rambled on so long I had to cut the message into 2 posts. Got them inverted. Oh well, you'll figure it out
Have you done any posts on the forums yet? I think you have to have a certain # of posts before you can send/recieve private messages. That's a bit easier to use than the Visitor messages, if you like.
Ok, outa here ....
Pat

Im kind of having a laid back weekend. Not much planned 'cept yard work, couple of visits to tha gym and some quality nap time . May get the bike out early tomorrow and hit some trails but will depend on mood at the time. Other than that, being lazy, do a bit of reading. Was around several people all last weekend, work week is always intensely people-driven. This weekend need solitude - keep own thoughts, sort things, think-meditate-pray. Am grateful that I have the luxury to do that. Ok, now who'se rambling on again? Me! Gonna run now, dear. Grins!!

Hey Finding: Yeah, breaking up w/ someone can be very very tough. Ive often wished I could just reach into my heart and flip a switch and instantly stop thinking bout someone. My mind seems to run round and round in circles - same old "i should have done this, should have said that, should've seen this coming ... on and on. Just want to yell STOP!! to my brain. It does get better over time. I expect you're seeing that already. And I do get what you mean by needing to find yourself after being in a close relationship. Easy to get so wrapped in the 'us' that we lose the "me". I bet that one day you'll be able to look back at the relationship and smile and just think of all the growing and learning it brought. You're at a very exciting time of life - ending one stage (college), starting another, deciding and defining your career path. So very much to learn and experience.. new love & relationships will come, don't doubt that.