Jenny123
Junior Member

All night long I felt like someone just went through my skin and pulled with its bare hands my heart. I want him back so bad but he wants out. I love him so much but for him it is easier to let go than to continue going with me. He said he has been wanting this for a while. I wish and prayed so many times that he falls back in love with me but I see no results, nothing. Well I am sorry I am just rambling on and on. I understand what you are going through it is very difficult to keep on going but you have children that depend on you, that love you, and that will always be there for you. I was not able to give him any children, I am not able to have any children all i had was him. Keep on going Jenny, God has given you the most lovely gift ever your children, their health and yours. be strong, stand tall, you will make it for your children and for yourself

Hi Jenny, The holidays have been really hard on me too. Thanksgiving he did not call me, for xmas he called me to wish me a good xmas, he said he was thinking of me and hoped that things would come together for me. For new years he did not call me but yesterday he called me to ask me if it was a good day to pick up the rest of his stuff. It killed me, He came yesterday and we talked I don't know. But at least I know he did not spent it with her he spent it with his family which he almost never does. I saw him so determined and I wanted to hurt him emotionally but I saw no reaction. I know he has no feelings for me but pain that he has hurt me and he said he does miss me but he has to do this. After he left about three i put myself to bed and tried to sleep so that I won't think I was so depressed that I did not answer any of my calls or got up for anything until this morning.

Thank you so much. I would really like that. I believe that talking about it would somehow help us. I am also here for you. I am still trying to comprehend what is going on but little by little I am putting the puzzle together. My husband and i have been married for two years but we were together for 15, lived together for about 6 years total. He was my first and only boyfriend and I was his first girlfriend. He told me he was going to divorce me over the phone about two weeks ago was not even able to do it in person. He said he was a coward. It all came as a hit to me as we were not having any major problems. As you might have read in my previous thread Is he cheating or what.... ( I had no idea that this was part of the puzzle) there was this girl in his class that liked him, he had told me in the past. He told me that she had asked him if there could be anything between them although she knew that he was married he had told her that he was married and would not do that to his wife because we had history together. So one day she text message him at 2 a.m. which made me feel uneasy so I talked to him about how it made me feel. He told me he would talk to her and tell her that it was uncalled for. One month later, her sister called late at night asking if he knew where she was I asked him why she felt comfortable calling him and asking. At that time, I believe he had not had time to be with her as he was always with me or at work and he went to school two days out of the week the only days that he had time to work on his art. He asked her why her sister was calling himlate at night asking for her while he was laying in bed with her wife. She told him that she had talked to her psychiatrist about her dream of marrying him, having children with him, and having a studio together. to make a long story short, I just found out that he is staying at her house since our separation. It is like he forgot that I existed, like he wants to erase me forever out of his life , he did.