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ok this is so insane... my bf's best friend lives with us ..... with us 24 /7 unemployed has been for 6 months. My bf gets me all pumped up to go somewhere this weekend .... and then 10 mins ago just say yeah its ok if buddy comes eh....... and i'm like oh yeah for sure.

The problem is the friend was in the room he did it so I wouldn't voice how I really feel......... make me look like the nasty b*tch the one who always says no.............. whatever get a...

This was part of my fitness post but this is a 12 week workout and I am plan on updating my feeling about his regularly... I"ll keep ya posted


OK I"ve been at it again for 2 days and I feel AMAZING! I know if you read my other posts to ppl on emotional issues i'm always advising for ppl to eat less sugar and do something physical.

So if i'm gonna talk the talk I have to walk the walk! I have been feeling so bogged down and getting to a point...

My life is falling part some days and other days its amazing.

Recently i've been struggling with failure... Am I failing in my current relationship? Why is our communication so hard. Why can't we talk? Why when I express myself does he always go on the defensive? Why won't he just listen and let what i'm saying sink in and just sit with what i'm saying instead of making it into a battle? Why does he see me as then enemy when all i've ever tried to do is help him and love him. Is...

I just wrote out how I felt and all the bs that is going on in my life..... i posted then went on to write something else...... none of it shows up the page timed out and none of it took.

That is funny cause that is how I feel right now invisable....... that what I have to say deson't count ... my emotions and feelings don't count... how fitting

Maybe its good cause what I had to say was very negative and maybe I should look within for some more...

This life can be a real pain some days with so many choices we must make for ourselves and at the same time keeping the people we love the most happy with our power of choice.

There can be a lot of misunderstandings and heartache for some and all of life's lessons can seem to come around the hard way. What i try to remind myself is we are all fighting an inner battle on some level and all we can offer is compassion for one another.

We can get over anything we put...