Hi, I'd rather PM on this. You have to have 30 posts to gain that ability. I'd still counseling may be useful though just because they can help you get where you want to be - where ever that may be. My biggest concern with your situation would be that it could came to haunt you later in the form of mistrust. You know, the you did it before, why wouldn't you do it again? kind of thinking. Please take care. WC
Answering your previous suggestion to go to the therapy... I should, right? However, right now I am in a relationship that lasts for about a year, best I have ever had, the one where there is the highest level of understanding and most probably with future. I do realizie that it is something that is perceived to be grossly wrong and very easily judged. But it's sooo complicated... i can't divorce yet for an important reason, I don't want to go to therapy because I do not want to fix my marriage. I used to want it, but I don't have will power to do that now. Honestly, all I am doing is waiting until I can fully support myself and children and just get out of this...