Passion
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So how are you doing now lady? One of your thread came back up and I realized we haven't heard from you for a while. Are you moving forward? Feeling any better? It takes time. Keep your chin up, the best revenge is living well. I find that buying myself flowers regularly feels really good. A couple weeks ago I had a blast - bought some helium balloons at the dollar store and took a walk, with balloons! You know you have to smile doing that? And you wouldn't believe the response you get from people, they smile, wave, honk - give it a try. It will lift your spirits.

Jenny123 I am no one to judge you. I honestly would have done the same. I would have hold on to him and be happy that he was once again next to my side. You said that it was a moment of weakness from both parts so that is why you dont feel confused or hurt because you knew all along what it was. Are you hopefull, though? He was a big part of your life for so long that it was just came natural to you. Do you really believe him when he called you all that you have your guard up and its only normal. Secretly I wish my husband would come back to me again... and feel his closeness again..

passion I really appreciate your kind words and deep down I know that good things will happen to me including a man that will cherish every moment with me....but I do have a confession to make...last night he came over and we were intimate...he was calling me babe and kept telling me over and over that he loves me so much..I know this was a moment of weakness on both of our parts and to be completely honest not once did I utter the three word phrase and today I don't feel confused hurt or anything...I really don't know what that means what are your thoughts? I hope you don't judge me too much..I did miss him and love him but did not tell him.

The ext morning at 7:30 am he calls me which I thought was weird, he says again that he thinks its really messed up that I went out with his friend and he heard I kept hitting him if that meant I was flirting with him, of course not I said that's my friends boyfriend Iwould never do that..he says I hate you, you know that I really hate you! and hung up on me...I called back crying telling him I'm sorry that if it upsets him that much I would have not gone out that night, I said I really thought he could care less about me why would it matter..he says I will always care I do care I do not want anyone too think of me like those women that go out that are easy, I said I have not changed I am the same person ..he started crying apologizing for not including me in his life prior to the separation and the dishonesty on his part

Hi passion,
doesn't it seem as though some days are better than others...just when I think "I'm ok" something happens...like you said Valentine's. it was ok until I got a call asking if I had gone out with one of his friends a few weeks back, well my friend happens to be his really good friend's boyfriend so yes technically he was out with me but not only me..so he was upset that I was hanging out with him and if I was going to make it a habit on going out with him and any of his other friends, I said I didn't understand why he was upset but that it wouldn't happen again. I was upset when I got off the phone wondering what I did really was that bad

Hi Passion,
How have you been? I hope you are feeling better and hope that things in your life are finally getting brighter. I haven't seen you post in awhile neither have I....sometimes I would rather not think about my situation sometimes, but honestly things are looking better for me emotionally I hope for you as well.
take care, Jenny

Thanks Passion!!!!!!!

Hey Passion,

Thanks for the response. I am not on here and use this site as much as I would like to be. I read your threads and my heart goes out to you. My advice is cry, cry it out. I want to say Men but it's people that change and when your in a relationship, it can change you world around.

I am struggling with a few things with my significant other and I hope to post something soon to get some advice.

Thank God for your friends they really seem to be helping you with this time in your life. Stay Strong.

Hi passion,
My thanksgiving was not happy at all as a matter of fact he called me to wish me a happy thanksgiving and to ask how to cook for dinner..it turns out he invited that girl for thanksgiving and had my kids there as well! talk about a kick in the gut!
as far as christmas went I had my kids on the eve and xmas day he text me and said good morning and merry christmas, I never reponded he then came to pick up the kids and he handed me a gift...when he left I just threw it on the couch and sobbed!
New years eve I had my kids and new years day he called and said happy new year I said it back and I took the kids over to him....he was staring at me and said you're really thin..I said thank you and left..I have lost 30 lbs its been a struggle and somedays still I find my mind going to him and I get angry because of it other days I try to look at the bright side and think that this year will be better for me!
I hope you are doing well I am thinking of you!
talk to you soon.

hope you have a safe and happy holiday!

xoxoxo