rcoreyus
March 2008 "Poster of the Month"

i sometimes find myself regretting divorcing my ex-husband...he genuinely loves me...unconditionally...takes good care of me and our kids...but when it comes to sex...he forces me...honestly, i am contemplating on getting back with him.

i have built some fondness with his family...and he treated me well...though at times, he's a jerk because of too much alcohol consumption...i am better off without him i know that rationally...but i hope my heart follows soon...

i had trust issues and i felt insecure once in a while, especially when I am out of my emotional balance (mostly during my period)...I even freak out when he looks and checks out other girls...i am a mom though my kids were taken away by their dad without my permission - i am divorced and he's single...he is alcoholic (trying to recover), he smokes ocasionally (that I don't like - and told him), he has porn attachments and strip joint issues that I truly don't like...I have told myself that he's not the guy I am going to settle with...but man, the sex was really good (to be honest)...and we have connection...we are each other's bestfriends and when we parted, we promised each other that we shall remain best of friends...I know...but it really hurts...i still want him...

we cuddled all 3 hours we cried...i told him i cannot stand losing my bestfriend...he said he does, too...he cried out loud like a kid...after he left...he called to check on me if i am ok...i don't get it...why did he dump me....he kept reassuring me before that I have nothing to worry...that i can trust him...all those months he kept me secured and out of the blue yesterday, he dropped the bomb! Why?

i posted unto a similar thread on relationship about "bf not wanting to marry me"....he broke up with me yesterday, after 10 months...he said he can't commit to me, that he still wants to look around...that he doesn't love me as much as i love him...that he cares for me...and he's wondering if what he's done is right...but at that time, he felt that it was really the right thing to do...

richard, i think you are a very understanding and loving spouse...for that, i salute you! bad news on my part...my heart is broken...i hope and wish it heals soon...

Just wanted to say hi....

I was replying to caterpillar and read what you wrote...

I wonder if she loves the "travelling" everywhere and you may be right in anyone of those what hurts me is that you don't know which one...

I hope one day you do...

K...P....

i wonder what could be wrong...i felt that myself and it was before - with my ex-husband.

Oh, sorry. But on the brighter side, you had her by your side, right? You didn't fight, did you? I sent you a PM, have you tried looking at Love Languages yet?

hey, you...how is everything?