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i will be planting or trying to save a hyacinth bulb i got for my birthday. it's ok if we don't start on the same day. but i think doing this together will hepl both of us feel better.
plant ur seeds or plant/flowers in the pot or the ground. before you start turn on some corinne baily rae, norah jones, john mayor, kt tunstell, colbie callait, or tayolr swift. do not use an ipod, have it playing loud in the house so u and the plants can hear it outside. after planting, admire with a nice cold beverage. now spend the next few weeks caring for ur "babies" every night before u go to bed remind yourself that you need to get up tomorrow and take care of them before work unless u get home around 1 in the afternoon then after work. remind yourself while ur showering. make sure they get alot of FEEL GOOD music. take the time to talk to them. research the care instructions. water appropriatly. and put your hands in the dirt every time you go out there. this is important for u to do this, because i'm going to do it today too, and i would like you to do it with me!
theres something i was hoping u would do with me. i dnt no where u live, but if its sunny, scrounge up some change and go buy a small plant/flower or some seeds. make sure the plant is good for ur area. lettuce does good in most places, and seeds sprout quick and easy. if u need a pot get that or plant them in your yard. go home, make sure u do this outside in the sun. that is most important.
Hey I really appreciate your comment. You are right, talking to him has made it worse.. Sadly I just felt like at any moment he would want to get back together with me and I wanted that so bad. I hate being alone dealing with these issues they are awful... I just wish I could almost be a guy sometimes because they just forget about it and move right on. I'm so tired of any time im alone I always end up crying and so depressed.. Im so lost...
