The forecast said it's going to be sunny here yesterday and today , but apparently it was wrong! "I'm a lumber jack and I'm OK. I sleep all night and I work all day" (in the cold yesterday and maybe today). LOL. How are you?
That's what we suspected at first. Then I have indoor plants. We realized later, I gave them a luscious breeding ground, and they started pestering us, biting even. I removed 1/4 of soil on top of my potted plants and replaced it with sand and added some Sevin dust with cedar granules to ward them off - it worked (for 2-3 weeks). Now, we are feeling one or 2 flying by. And I saw some coming in through the crack in the backdoor of our house, and a lot of dead ones, when I did those measures, in the guest bathroom, hence, we are also considering pouring some ammonia in our drains and sinks and leave it for a night or two. I read online that those are no ordinary fruitflies, but gnats who love fungus, and rotting stuff. They have killed a lot of my tropical palms.
Are they fruit flies? Those come in on bananas and such
My imagination went wild as a matter of fact after I read "orgies". LOL... It reminded me of an article I read about a nudist society which have their own gated community, and how they go about their day-to-day activities of life naked in their very own backyard/front yards. Aww, don't give up. But then again, that's what I just told myself about wanting more sex and not getting as much as I would want - and then the opposite just happened, which I hope is not short lived. I'm actually marking my calendar on this one. (shhhh...he's scoring pretty high this week). Btw, I'm having a bad gnats infestation inside my home. We're suspecting they are getting in through the drains, as when he first moved in, the clean-out was open, plus we had our sewer line. Likewise, our backdoor - they are also able to get through there, we might need to replace it completely... Bottomline: Jeremy hates this house he bought. He feels he's been tricked.
I do know an interesting collection of people. From hard care religious to the other end of the spectrum. I guess my problem is that I would like to spoiled by actually being loved by a man I love. After this many years I think I have given up. I'm not much of a bicyclist but we sure do have a lot of them here and mountains are simply full of goog places to do it!
Hah! You made my head spin there for a bit - orgies? WTF? Oh, did I just say that?! Maybe focus on writing a book about how to enhance orgasms the WC way? I'm actually interested about it, as I don't have the $ to buy all the various books you've recommended - so why not the WC style? Vegan soup sounds good... You know, Jeremy had been talking about riding bicycles in your part of the mountain.
Oh Cat. you always do cheer me up. I know things will change. But they won't even be the same. I don't know if they will be better as far as dealing with men. I've been flirting with the poly community a bit, I may give that a try. Not as a household living situation but just an occasional foray. Problem is, I do not have and never have had any sexual interest in women. Period. I suppose I could show up for the occasional orgy - I do have that opportunity fairly regularly. Oooo but that could involve people I have no interest in even unattracted sex with. Well I guess that wasn't a good idea... Scratch the orgies. Don't really like the one night stand thing. Maybe I better just build a good collection of toys? I don't really like those either but maybe I could learn to? What a whiner I am these days! It's been snowing, not really sticking. I think I'll make a pot of vegan soup.
I'm planning on getting myself a kegelmaster from you, serious about it. Why would I get it from anybody else? I am worried about my biological mom, as she is in her mid-60's and she's had complete hysterectomy, no sex at all ever since my dad died, and she doesn't play by herself (I know, that's how she "trained" me)... I wonder if she'd be open to do such thing just for the purpose of helping her pelvic/floor/vaginal wall and prevent incontinence? With regards to reading Tolle's stuff, I take everything with a grain of salt. And though Jeremy was the one who introduced me to his writing, he himself does the same precaution. No, Ma'am, you're not a slow learner - you are the opposite. Slow learners would not address nor recognize the reality as you are doing. It is depressing, yes, but it is at the same time refreshing that in the midst of your pain, you recognize the learning, the yearning, the void...yet continue to live, to breath and enjoy life as it happens.
Haven't sold any product. Keep telling myself I'm building connections and it will come. I hope so. I'm literally down to being unable to pay my bills after this month. I really detest Tolle. Think he's a general idiot. His books are painful to read. But I get your point. I think it's depression, very focused. I love easily but I do not fall in love. In love is different thing all together. I gave my heart so completely that I don't know if I will ever 'own' that part of it again. It isn't mine, I gave it and got too little in return to fill the place it came from, now there is a void. Its a kind of numbness, a non feeling. It's not a scar - I have plenty of those - it an empty spot where nothing can connect anymore. You'd think after all men have put me through I would have given up a long time ago. Guess I'm a slow learner.
I guess so. Not sure if it was Elkhart Tolle who said something about the second consciousness - but I see that's what you're doing - recognizing your current state and just being. That's how I felt during the second break up (remember that time?), I dated, but nobody came close. Time would tell, indeed...time would also heal....you never cease to educate me with your experiences. How is the kegel Mistress doing in business?
