Your were, but you know the saying " a lep... can't change his spots", I think his whole circle of friends and family will be gravely disappointed in the opportunity he had to turn the page but didn't, again, it's not your problem or fault. I guess, I avoid "baggage" pose the questions and don't go there, next time, not what you want to hear I know, you worked so friggen hard on this relationship, it's like once they have you they fall back into their pattern, the one you didn't know about but by then your hooked.... and so you keep trying, I did that remember, but I aint doing that now, 3 dates, and none got to a second... It's hard for you I know WC...
Probably, the killer was I talked to his brother, just trying to understand what was going on. He told me this was a life long pattern. Any way this is regarded as a betrayal of the first degree. There were indications in that convo that I was treated somewhat differently than the norm. I will get over it.
Deep breaths... Remember your worth... He probably changed back to who he really was, not changed persay.... x
It was so amazing at one time -really all I wanted and then he changed. I guess a year and a half waiting for it to change back was enough. He did lend me money to buy the truck to get me started contracting, but ir's over.
I know.... I've toughened up from the " wish list"... You have to keep trying mam... But, you just can't "enter" on a wounded bird, and "wish".... you know that bit, and I'm sorry he was stupid enough not to see the beauty and smarts and all that you are and that he could have all that. That's his fault remember, not yours x
Thanks, I'm feeling pretty wounded right now. We will probably be friends of a sort but there was and could have been so much more. I know when the pain subsides I will probably find that this is for the best but trusting again will be really hard.
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I don't think it was a risk sweet. You don't do drilling on NYE I think you and I don't have time to waste and that we need to make management decisions so we can move on to bigger and better things I am so sorry but then again, I know that your in all the right directions for you, if someone can't follow that and walk besides you with that, then there is someone that will... I know your hurting as well as feeling down but there is someone better for you... And, this one was better than the last, but there is so much more you have to give and someone who wants to see it and give back out there x thinking of you
Well I took a risk, pushed some buttons and it's over.
Happy New Year
