I am so greatfull to find all of you!!! I know I have PMDD but I havn't been diagnosed. I saw my doctor in July (now that I have insurance) but she just thrust a paper about PMDD at me and said "every thing looks good, see you next year."
I have two kids and I had a bout of PMDD some time in between having my 8 year old and my 2 year old, but it went away, or seemed to, about a year before I got pregnant with my 2nd. But now its back!!! I don't know why but I can't handle it anymore! Last month I had no symptoms and I prayed that that was it, but this month it is back- and that hope of last month makes this one seem worse.
I have one or two really BAD days about 10 days before my period. I can feel it bubbling up inside of me and I fight it untill I can't think and I can't stand it, and then I just explode into this angry, bitter, yelling monster (usually toward my undeserving girls) that is so ugly that I think I'd be better off dead- I think "if I knew it wasn't the ******est idea in the world, I could just slit my wrists and be done with it!" And then I totally freak out and start to cry. After I cry I feel a lot better.
Here is a symptom that I haven't found in my research and wonder if any of you have experienced anything similar: every time I have my "big blow-up freak-out day" the very next day I get iching and burning in my vagina, sort of like a yeast infection, but not. I know it's not because it only goes away when I have my period. It always comes predictable to my cycle and my on-set of symptoms and it always goes away the same predictable way. It is almost like my body becomes extra acidic with my symptoms. Sometimes I even get canchor sores in my mouth. It is very uncomfortable and annoying (and imbarassing!!) Any thoughts or similar experience out there? My doctor did every test you can think of and everything came back good. I've been married for a LONG time to a very faithful man, so STD is not the problem.
My goal is to try the diet and exercise self-treatment. I don't exercise at all, eat poorly, drink 2-3 cups of coffee a day, love chocolate. The diet and exercise thing seems like it might be promising (at least worth a try before getting medicated). I can't afford to loose my drive because of a medication. I home-school my kids and their education depends on my being able to function well.
Thanks for reading my very long post, I hope someone is able to respond.