kays

Hi! :-)

I know this thread seems a little dead, but it seems its a topic that needs to be talked about. And I'm at a point where I need help, after breaking down for most of the week.

Well I have had issues with my body since puberty and I can say I am now 21 and I feel so old. I'm in pain most of my life in some form and feel like I am constantly waiting for a period to come and bring me back up to earth from absolute . No exagerration.

I have been diagnosed with polycystic ovaries too..but have kind of been left to it by the NHS (as with everything else). Put on Prozac and practically every antidepressant going, had many suicide attempts, now on/off Zoloft sometimes. This doesn't include the 7 or so birth control pills, including cerezette (absolute once finishing it). I also lost 65lb then gained 60lb in the last year, but has a wonderful way of making you ohh so happy.

I'm here because I'm at a point where I can't take this anymore..and it needs to change otherwise its going to end up destroying me. Theres only so long you can keep fighting...ya know? And I feel so tired and stupidly, so old.

One thing I can say for anyone that is having irregular periods, agnus castus has worked wonders on me. Consider that I had not had a regular period in 2 years, within one month of vitex I had a period on the 28th, then the next month the 29th. The moods, unfortunately, are still around.

Extreme suicidal behaviour, substance abuse (practically anything I can find to numb my mind enough to last through it without doing something silly), debilitating anxiety, depression, fatigue, binging or starving (never normal eating), insomnia or sleeping constantly..I could go on.

I'm amazed that I had to find these things that work out for myself and can't even put into words how angry and betrayed I feel at doctors. I have lost any and all faith I ever had in the medical world and seeing a doctor is always my very last resort. This is due to more then just my medical issues and also include my mother, who they practically nearly killed before diagnosing with a simple thyroid diagnosis.

So yeah..sorry about this, lol..just a little on the edge today.

hpalmer78

Hey there -
Wow! You have the PMDD of all PMDD's! You poor thing! How are you now? are you feeling any better? Your story is so tough to read. . I'm so sorry.

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Christina12

I so understand what you're feeling... I have had all those issues that you have spoken of and it will totally drive you nuts trying to find a answer. My doctor first told me to try taking Evening Primerose herbs for my PMS/PMDD... It didn't seem to touch it than I told her I wanted to give YAZ a try.. Jesus I've taken myself off of it as of this past weekend after 4 months.... The worst of it is my husband has been no support what so ever, if anything I swear he does things during this time to get me going and then likes to sit back and say oh it's that time... Could almost knock his socks off... The YAZ didn't really do anything but make me gain weight, I still have the mood swings and the suicide thoughts.. Now I just try to avoid any situation that might set me off like a pistol. I try to get lost in a book I'm reading and keep happy music around me cause the sad ones will make it worse. Honey I'm sorry that you're dealing with this but please try to stay positive !!!!!

lorianna

5HTP, 5HTP, 5HTP. PMDD almost ruined my life. I have been on many medications with little success. I began taking 5HTP about 3 weeks ago and have never felt better. I am finally happy for the first time in 17+ years. I wrote a really great post then it was deleted before I could post it. I will write more tomorrow. I would like to hear from others who have take n 5HTP.

Gemima

Hello. I've just worked out that I may have PMDD. For the past 16 years I have had a week of irrational behaviour, anger, tears, tantrums.... the lot. My doc told me I have a high level of testosterone and that may be the cause of my "moodiness". It's only this past few days & a big chat with my mum that we've worked out it maybe PMDD. I broke up with my fella on Friday due to my terrible moods once a month, as he didn't understand & I was driving myself mad trying to work things out in my head to try & tell him & not getting the words accross properly.
I took some 5 HTP today & have written a mood diary to get my head round things & I am seeing my doctor in the week to tell HIM what is wrong with me.
I never knew this existed & I feel a bit clearer in my head now. The break up has done my head in, but I haven't cried for at least 4 hours now, which is a step in the right direction!

Gemma
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Jazzie

Hi, I was told I had pmdd about 4 months ago, the doctor offered me anti depressants, but I said no, I was taking B6 tablets and was feeling pretty normal while on them, but now they dont seem to be doing much for me. The doctor has given me lexapro I havent taken them yet, I am abit scared, I have never been on anti depressants before and not sure if they are going to make me feel worse or better. Has anyone else tried them for pmdd and did they work?

Christina12

Hey lorianna, I went to my doctor Friday after taking myself off of YAZ that did nothing for me but made me gain about 10lbs She put me back on my old birthcontrol pill and tried giving me prozac.. I told her no anti-depressants I took prozan after my father passes away and blew up to 225 and did nothing but go to work and sleep.

I decided just this weekend to start on 5HTP and I'm really excited about it. It's great to know that you've hand such a positive experience with it.

yellowpiXi3

i am sorry to hear everyone here who suffers from PMDD. i also have PMDD. i take yaz, and it helps but sometimes i just can't control my brain to stop thinking. its hard to focus. i've quit several jobs, and had failed relationships because of it. and i know a lot of you ladies are taking anti-depressents and i hope it works for you. i am going to see my doctor next week and tell him that i can't control myself as much as i used to. sometimes i just don't know what to do anymore. although i do take comfort in knowing that i'm not alone.

sometimes i load up on chocolate during my pmdd week (before my period) sometimes it helps... i just feel bad for my bf sometimes. he says he understands and tries to help me. but i just wish i can make it easier for him too. he says that he can see the pain that i'm in. so, i try not to see him when i feel like , and don't want to take things out on him. but sometimes him being there is comforting too.

Jazzie

Hi, I tried the lexapro, had one tablet and I wont take any more lol. I got so sick. I am taking B6 which helps some months but other months it doesnt seem to do much. I start suffereing from the time I ovulate, the crankyness, tired, cant sleep, then I will cry for no reason. Mine has been getting worse over the last few years, after my second child I tried 5 different birth controls and none helped, I was even worse on them. So I got my tubes tied. I love reading this site to see that I am not the only one, I havent ment anyone else with PMDD, so no one really understands how I feel, except my mum who is going through menopause, lol. If anyone has any other ideas of things for me to try to feel normal again please let me know, I forget what normal feels like.

lorianna

I am also taking Lexapro. I take the Lexapro along with my 5HTP. I tried to gradually get off the Lexapro but I started to get more depressed. It looks like I need the combination of the two. Normally I take 20mg of Lexapro. I am only taking 10mg right now because we lost our insurance when my husband's lob was lost. I am trying to make the Lexapro last as long as possible. I am also taking B6, Magnesium, and Calcium. Sometimes I feel like a pill popper especially when I have to take allergy meds. Thank God 5HTP is not RX. I just hope we gain insurance again soon. I am not sure how well of a person I am going to be without Lexapro and Ambian.