OMG!!!! There are a few exceptions but my life is very similiar! I am now 2 years clean but I go through utter and so do those who love me!!! My finance is still with me, although for the life of me I dont know why! I have no insurance or job and am not medicated properly, the YAZ is so expensive I cant afford it anymore. I have heard about Zoloft and seeing a doctor means going to the free clinic my soon to be mother in law owns and everyone in his family knows my medical business. With 10 mg of amatryptline and the YAZ no one got hurt and I didn't break anything. I dread this months swing!!!!! Thanks for listening...finally I am not as crazy as I feel....