hi i am brand new to this just joined today. I need to tell you who i was fun friendly and full of life and life was full of mei moved away from home and had a fun life i was always there for everyone and listened to everyone im in a good realationship as i do know the bad ones but they never kve been having kept me down. i enjoyed my own company.

now in the mirror i dont know her i dont know where i have gone im currently off work trying to deal with stress i get servere pains in my chest i dont sleep and i can cry at the drop of a hat even now trying to write this i cant find the words my doc said the pains are from panic attacks which he thinks i have been having for months only they got so bad i had to go to the doctor i actually thought it was chest infection and go straight back to work. and then 3 weeks ago i looked in the mirror and i wasnt the smiley girl i once was i cant remember her she has been gone a long time. i hate my job i v been living in a new area and i have made no friends of course i get e mails and txts on my phone but if im honest they stopped months ago hadnt the time. i love my boyfriend but i havent been close to him in months always to tired or some excuse he stopped fighting with me on that.


i wish i could turn of my brain but i dont know whats in it anymore.....
why do i feel like this......
has this been the real me along and i just pretend to be outgoing and fun.....
im soooooo lost////

Hi lostinlife.

Sounds more to me like you moved away from where you were so happy amongst friends, family maybe, a job you liked and you slowly ever so slowly have lost all of that, as friends can only email/text for so long before continuing themselves with their own life.. in the "real world" more so and they do.

Now you have a job you don't like and no friends and it has gotten you down to the point you don't know who you are.

Well, your the same person and you may just simply be depressed that would be my judgement if i was to make one and off course we don't judge here... so opinion will do.

Panic attacks are caused by the un-known, fear..

But you should discuss with your doctor that you feel depressed as well if that be the case, because it sure is sounding that way.

You have a boyfriend that you love , one for you.
You have a new puppy that you love, two for you.


Now you need to make friends, they won't come to you, so work out what you love doing, hobbies, etc, and start mingling in those circles and get to know people that like things you do.

Once, you start to make friends, you will be happier and more yourself again, your relationship will go back on track and you will want to work and seek a job you like, you will more than likely re-gain communication more with those friends as well but on a happier note, light... If you are communicating with them that you are down, they will understand but everyone likes happy people, including yourself, you know her, she's not lost, she's just in transition...

CW

thank you cw

i have alot ofthinkin to do i always wanted to do photography so im going to take that up .my bf is after leaving his job so i do need to pull my self out of this. th onl thing that bothers me now are the panic attacks they come whenever they likeat any time its hard to control them . thank you cw

It's a good start and check out the internet of where there may be a group nearby that join locally to compare? Can't hurt.

Probably him not having a job soon is also concerning you, you are in a place you don't know, you know no-one and now security is scaring you off course your having panic attacts..

Deep breaths and think positive and do a few things like you are saying definately, definately take up photography and see what's local.....

One step at a time, Rome wasn't built in a day ok

CW

its so good to get advise thank you soo much im trying to stay positive and get back on track and alot has happened this year which i proably should have dealt with at the time but i through myself in to work.Started going for walks only short due to being dizzy and the pain in my chest its scary how phyiscal being stressed can get .

ABSOLUTELY?

true story.. I have found that when people don't reply to a thread after reading some one's reply is because all they could say is i agree.

So 100 current odd members therefore agree maybe...

So just because i am the only one replying trust me, people believe in you and that in what you are doing.

Re-read a couple of times especially what you say you are going to start like photography...

You have to start somewhere and from there it all sort of fits into place somewho trust me.

CW

I would consider myself one of those odd members, I do a lot of reading on here but don't really post a lot. And I'm one of those that usually agrees with the advise that is given...I just figure its redundant to keep repeating the same things.
So when you post, just remember....there's usually at least 1 or more others that are reading on here that could probably post the same thing as you, we're all in a lost place in our lives at one time or another.
Do your best to get interested in something and keep going for those walks, they do help...I can def. relate to the stress thing!!!