thoughts wont go away
As i child, going into like...4th grade maybe?? 3rd or 4th...i remember being paranoid and freaked out about my mother dying. Id ask everyone their age and make sure that they're old enough so I know my mother will live longer.
Those thoughts and worries went away for a little bit, but they're back now.
I'm terrified of losing her. I can't stop crying and thinking about her dying.
I can't lose her and I don't know whats wrong with me.
I'm starting to get nightmares about her dying and I'm scared shirt....less.
Help.
I don't know how to get rid of these thoughts and what to do.
I feel like i need to spend every second with her so Id on't miss anything.
I'm 21 by the way.
Thanks for your honesty guys!
Last edited by CHANDLERS WISH; 12-18-2008 at 04:20 AM.
~Nakraju, svi smo sami~
i think you're having panic attacks. I'm having them right now, but mines gotta do with the fear of feeling sick and alone. i dont know how to control it either. its horrible! when the thoughts begin in my head and it never stops until the panic takes over. are you feeling any other side effects??
Is your main fear about being left without her? Or is it something else?
my only other side effect would be crying, and not hard to breathe.
and i think im afraid to be left without her.
I don't know. Just thinkign abotu this makes me cry my eyes out.
The worse thing is i JOKINGLY say that she should die soon or something and that i wish she'd die, but then it eats me fromt eh inside when i say that.
I don't know whats going on, and Im afraid to move otuta state withotu her and such.
~Nakraju, svi smo sami~
Are you an only child? How was your up-bringing with your Mother?
And, have you discussed these fears with your mum, if so, what has she said.
CW
Do we not realise that in order to find a soul
It doesn't happen over night
if truth were to be told.
Like everything in life that's hard to achieve
you must believe!
no im not an only child.
I do have an older sister
I've never spoken to my mom about this.
I do know that everytime I bring it up or she does...i think of suicide right away. I told her that if she died, id stab my self.
She was a perfect mother.
Always did her best.
~Nakraju, svi smo sami~
sweetheart, I think you have a phobia. Phobia's can be treated effectively with a therapist and possibly medication. You said that you also have a weight problem amongst others....these problems could be symptoms of this condition. Sounds like you are making yourself sick from fear. Fear of being alone, maybe? get a therapist that specializes in phobias....you need to....sounds like you are letting yourself go to the point of maybe being so sick that you die before your mom, so you won't have to face life w/o her. Love yourself...you are worth it!!!! I think your mom has many years ahead of her, and loves you very much..... !!! You are drowning in fear of her death. Tell her how you feel and ask for help. Add me to your friend list, send me a message anytime.
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