This is such a difficult issue. It's so hard. I just realized today this has probably been my problem for a long time. Even today my boyfriend and I almost broke up- I told him that if I really loved him I would let him find someone to make him happy which is the only thing I want for him. This is true. I feel like I'm nothing but destructive and he can't understand it and I can't control it. I was telling him earlier the way I was feeling and he was just like "I don't get it. What do you have to be so upset about?" and "Why are you doing this to me?" (ok...that kind of seriously irritated me... ya cause I WANT to feel this way.) things of that nature. I couldn't find a way good enough to explain to him that I felt like I was losing my mind, I couldn't think straight and I was talking about outlandish crazy things. Like last night, we had a fight (long story); I upset him and he upset me. I went drinking (which was probably dumb), but I thought it was a good idea at the time to give us space. I seriously almost packed a bag and went to the airport. I was going to get on a plane to wherever, I don't even know, and just... leave. I feel suffocated and alone because he can't relate to me. He told me I should move in with my dad because he is not able to take care of me. He keeps telling me to grow up and that he wants to date a woman and not a child. I can understand his frustration, but it is not a help when I'm feeling like this. All he knows is that I'm acting crazy and I'm hurting him and I'm negatively affecting his life. I really don't want to hurt him, I love him dearly; he is the most important person to me (which is why I told him I would leave. I'm so tired of saying I'm sorry, I f'd up AGAIN. He deserves someone who can treat him the way he should be). I hurt him so badly and I don't even mean to. Situations just spiral out of control; I don't even mean for half of our arguments to happen! And thanks to the OP, even though it was forever ago and you'll probably never read this- you inspired me to ask my BF to research this so hopefully he can understand better. Guys- please do your research and try to be as understanding as possible and help your woman. She does not mean to do these things and she does not want to do them anymore than you do!