You have me pegged correctly...when I have down time..I worry worry worry to the point that it makes me useless for anything constructive.
I went out to some yard sales today thinking I might spend a few dollars for clothes for my gandson and I did find a few things...but I felt so , I dont know, out of my element. It will sound strange, I felt like men didnt want to look at me, women didnt acknowledge my existence. I felt invisible at a time when I had hoped to connect to humanity at some point. I did find one lady who swore she knew me from somewhere and we exchanged names and such. Imust count that as a blessing to find out I do exist and I am not invisilbe.
I came home knowing I had projects to do..and I really donot feel like doing any of them. I just want to rest onthe couch..maybe watch tv if there issomething on worth watching.
I am trying to make a list to be more productive tomorrow. I am afraid I will get up and fail to do my list due to the lack of energy right now.
I thank those of you who are hanging in ther with me. It cant be great to be in my company right now when I dont see the world as a loving place.



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