Thread: Therapy Session

She is challenging your thinking isn't she?
She is right it is possible, I did it and so have millions of other people. The question is if you can handle the stress. It might make you feel really good about yourself and your abilities. You are intelligent. Why not work first on getting re-employed and handling the basics of your life. Then see about taking one class? If school is too far away, take it on line. Find out what you can do. I think you could handle it- IF you choose to.

Yes, she is.

I honestly don't know. All I can say is she thinks that emotionally I am not in a place to handle those types of situations.

I had to make a contract with her tonight that I won't abuse pills or cut for the next week, until our next session. She said that I am slowly committing suicide. I may not have a gun to my head but my self abuse could cause my suicide and that I just don't care.

The one thing that I hate about therapy is that if she feels I may hurt myself, it's her responsibility to report that. She would have to call the police and have them come and talk to me. That's why I agreed to the contract. If I can't agree to that contract again, she has to report that.

I'm just at a place in my life where I care about nothing. I don't care about myself. I don't care about my friends. I don't care about who is hurting me. I just don't care about anything anymore. That's why if I take pills and I happen to overdose, it's whatever to me.

If I don't care then it is impossible.

I care in the sense that I want to understand, yes but when it comes to how I treat myself and the abuse I do to myself, I don't care. Something isn't clicking... Thanks though Happy.

Re-read what happy ending said. At the end she said take care, you answered with "you don't care"..


Lindsay take this councelling slow.. You dis people that actually see you as you are, and only see one word in this case, it was "take care" , you responded, "I don't care" yet she has read your threads and has commented of how you are and she is correct.


It's the beginning yet again, and confusing, someone is telling you something your not quite getting which is normal, so your taking the bull by the horn and riding without sight.

How can you take on all? When you don't know where you are?

I'm thinking your at a stage of well needed talks, councelling and I'm again, proud your going down that path.

Quit wondering they have degrees There is no questions, go with the flow, listen and take in what makes sense for now, as slowly, it will continue to make more sense.

Your at a very deep cross road right now. It takes time.

CW

Originally Posted by ThexMrs

Today I had my therapy session. We discussed many things and one of them I haven't been able to shake off. I don't know how to feel about this. Here is what that is:

She told me that logically I can work and go to school. That LOGICALLY that is possible but she told me that emotionally, she thinks that it is impossible for me to work and go to school. She doesn't think that emotionally I am capable right now.

I'm really confused. There are days that yes, I feel like that but I'm just at a loss right now. I told her that I felt like that was an excuse for me to do nothing. She disagreed. She then asked if I thought that she needed to be harder on me/beat me up. I said, yes because well... I beat myself up all of the time. I just don't know what to do.

Linds,

I do work and school and yes, there are days that I feel like people would tell me I'm not emotionally capable of handling both. I break down, I cry, I want to lose it at times, BUT it has also allowed me to have a sense of purpose outside of being just a friend or a girlfriend. It has been a way for me to harness my own energy and to accomplish something purely because I want to.

You never truly know what you are capable of until you try it, but I feel like if you really put your mind to it, you can do it. Granted, I'm not a therapist, but for me, it has been a true reminder of how strong am I, and what I am capable of. It might work out the same way for you, and it sounds like maybe you need to be reminded of that.

Hang in there!!