Going home.
I just got back from a trip to my home state of North Carolina. I went to visit my family, whom I hadn't seen in a while. Every time I am home in North Carolina I am reminded of my childhood, my friends, and a generally happier, more carefree lifestyle that I too once had. When I left NC to move to Tn in 2005 I was 19-20 years old, I had a full time job then, as I do now... but back then my life was much more fun. I have sense lost allot of my friends simply due to the fact that I have been in TN for 5 years now, and we no longer have things in common. All of my friends seem to be so happy with their children and their seemingly perfect marriages. Why can't I be happy? All I ever do is work work work. I feel like I am about 50 years old. I never go out, my husband says he likes things the way they are right now because it's rutine and rutines are safe. I am so bored with my life right now that if it gets anymore rutine as the years roll by.... I might not make it. I feel like I have missed out on my youth... I have been working and going to school sense I was 16 years old. Everyday I go to work for more than 8 hours, I come home I eat and then I have just enough time to go right back to bed where the cycle starts all over again. Right now I feel like I just want to take a month off from my own life and be someone else.
A relationship of any sorts has to have compromise.
It sounds as if, yours doesn't and so you feel in a rut.
Write down the things you can re-gain, even via emailing your family/friends... and write down what you miss and see if you can start creating some of that on your own, then talk to your husband out the missing things you can't do without him involved and see if you can compromise over those.
CW
Do we not realise that in order to find a soul
It doesn't happen over night
if truth were to be told.
Like everything in life that's hard to achieve
you must believe!
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