Anxiety/paranoia/insomnia

**kerry-** · 01-17-2010 12:59 PM

I feel like I'm losing my mind

I get extremely anxious over anything I can't sleep because my mind is so active all the time, but at the same time I can be totally depressed and like a zombie I don't get it! I'm also getting really paranoid that all my friends are going to turn on me or something and they're all going to start hating me. I've had issues in the past with anxiety attacks and just anxiety in general and was perscribed beta blocker which didn't work and I just never went back. I also had a self-harming problem which is resurfacing because I dunno it just helps me in some demented way, but I haven't started making myself sick again the way I used to (I wasn't bulimic I just did it when I felt REALLY anxious)
Eugh I feel so horrible all I want is company but at the same time I just want everyone to leave me alone? What's wrong with me?

**deepgrl** · 01-17-2010 01:13 PM

Kerry,
I think that you need to see a counsellor honey. There is nothing wrong with you! Everyone needs a bit of help along the way. Harming yourself is not a good idea, and it seems to me that it is a way of expressing your hurt. But you can find better ways then that. A counsellor would be able to listen to you, so go ahead and rant and rave. Tell him/her everything and I bet you will feel better. Expressing yourself in a journal is a good idea too. I hope you feel better soon. **hugs**

**kerry-** · 01-17-2010 01:21 PM

Originally Posted by deepgrl

Kerry,
I think that you need to see a counsellor honey. There is nothing wrong with you! Everyone needs a bit of help along the way. Harming yourself is not a good idea, and it seems to me that it is a way of expressing your hurt. But you can find better ways then that. A counsellor would be able to listen to you, so go ahead and rant and rave. Tell him/her everything and I bet you will feel better. Expressing yourself in a journal is a good idea too. I hope you feel better soon. **hugs**

I'd just be so nervous about seeing one

I tried to once but my doctor barely let me get a word in before he wrote me off with nothing wrong with me it's totally shaken my confidence, I suppose I could see another doctor because I just hate my regular doctor all he did last time was put it down to "exam stress" and gave me the beta blocker (and I didn't even have a chance to tell him I wasn't even TAKING any exams at this time

, I was like 16 at the time).

**CHANDLERS WISH** · 01-17-2010 02:48 PM

I get extremely anxious over anything I can't sleep because my mind is so active all the time

I think firstly you need to combat your sleeping pattern.

There's nothing wrong with an over active mind, providing you can train it to relax.

Without proper sleep you can't focus and things become "too hard", and therefore, you can get depressed.

There is a Thread on insomnia on this Form I'll try to locate it after pertaining to various things you can do to assist in sleeping...

Your Doctor as you know was "wrong" with his/her diognosis.

Definately seek a second opinion...

CW

**Hopeless Dork** · 01-17-2010 04:01 PM

You probably should see a specialist, if it was just your regular doctor that saw you they aren't as familiar with mental health issues as specialists so hopefully you can get a referral to someone with more of an understanding of what you are going through.

Having anxiety and panic attacks is no way to live your life. And if you are unable to get them under control they can seriously impact your quality of life. Already its affecting your social situations, now your sleep.. you can't treat this on your own, and usually things like this don't just go away on their own.

Take a deep breath and now that there is help for you, there are treatments that can help you to relax, medications that can trully help with the anxiety and methods you can learn to help calm you down in the middle of a panic attack.

But you are going to need a professional to help you get started with all of those treatment options. You are not alone. Many people, many... experience symptoms just as you described and I spent several years having anxiety, panic attacks and insomnia before seeking the help that got me on the right track.

I just don't have them anymore and when I feel one starting I know the things that work for me to come back down to normal.

You are going to be okay kerry, you just need to get into the kind of doctor that can speed up the process to getting you there.

**kira** · 01-18-2010 12:03 PM

If your insomnia is a result of anxiety or depression then it's usually pretty easy to treat. Once your sleeping it will relieve the other problems some as well. Anxiety and depression can cause insomnia and insomnia can cause anxiety and depression. It's a bad cycle to get in to. You need to see a psychiatrist or doctor about anxiety medication. Also do a google search for "living anxious" or "anxiety support" and you'll find some forums dedicated to this. There's a new forum coming up on all anxiety problems in life and then there is a really old social anxiety forum with a large member base. Entire forums of people who feel exactly like you. Both can tell you about therapy, medication, and other treatments that help as well as helping you find more local support groups.

**kerry-** · 01-27-2010 10:30 AM

Hello everyone! I'm kind of freaking out I went to my docs (seen a different doctor) to get help with my sleeping, I wasl literally just looking for some pills or something then everything came out about my moods. She asked me about my anxiety and I was telling her about my mood cycles of feeling totally chaotic and amazing then hitting a "crash" period where I feel like dirt. So I've been referred to a pyschiatrist.
I'm just quite afraid of the whole process of being assessed and stuff like I don't know what to expect? It's weird when I was saying what I've been going through for the last two years it just sounded so much worse than I what I thought I'd actually be going through. Like when I said it I realised how strange my lifestyle is.
Anyways quite terrified of this whole thing can anyone tell me what being assessed and therapy involves?