Have you ever had your past catch up with you?

**SecretlySad** · 01-21-2010 08:16 PM

I was admittedly a horrible person 10+ years ago. I said and did some awful things to people. Some they know of, some they don't. I am constantly petrified that these things they don't know are somehow going to catch up with me one day. These people are my good friends and trust me, they would NEVER forgive me if they knew. I lied about a lot of things to get attention, even going as low as fabricating an assault by one of them. I know, I know.

I am losing my mind worrying about it. I can't admit it to them because they will want to literally kill me, but I can't hold it in any longer. Has anyone else ever had their past creep up on them???

**CHANDLERS WISH** · 01-21-2010 08:18 PM

I don't know, they say honesty is the best policy and obviously your a different person now to what you were.

And, a true friend will always see that, know that, and understand.

Can't say I have to be honest, but sharing my thoughts with you anyway...

**SecretlySad** · 01-21-2010 08:30 PM

Thanks CW

YES oh my gosh soooooooooooooooooooooo different!!!! Hope no one on here judges me too harshly

**Texinator** · 01-21-2010 08:34 PM

Go admit your mistakes. You may lose a few friends, at least the ones that don't realize that you've changed and that your admission takes courage, but at least you'll keep your sanity.

**CHANDLERS WISH** · 01-21-2010 08:49 PM

We don't "judge" on this Forum...

You ask for answers, we will give you our opinion

And, I agree with Tex, for your own sanity, don't beat yourself up, the true friends will remain.

**Mes T** · 01-21-2010 08:51 PM

There's always the option of making new friends, starting fresh, and being the person you want to be with them.

**SecretlySad** · 01-21-2010 09:06 PM

Originally Posted by CHANDLERS WISH

We don't "judge" on this Forum...

*hugs*

**Texinator** · 01-21-2010 09:27 PM

Originally Posted by Mes_T

There's always the option of making new friends, starting fresh, and being the person you want to be with them.

Exactly.

**hanni** · 01-22-2010 03:22 AM

do you know why you made up some stuff to get attention? perhaps explore what made you do this - not to get excuses but to get a better understanding for yourself, this might help you start afresh as well.

**p3375** · 01-22-2010 03:31 AM

The truth is often not as well hidden as we like to think. It's very likely your friends already know, or at least strongly suspect, the terrible things in your past. If so, since they remain your friends, they have already forgiven the bad stuff and recognize the change in you.

I think you should work to forgive yourself, realize no one is perfect and move on. And, when one of your friends or loved ones does something you don't like, remember your own failings and give them a break.

P