Why do i feel so down?

**Little.Chuck** · 05-30-2010 09:59 AM

I have been so down today and its the first time in my anxiety disorder ive felt like this. I think its all the symptoms that are getting me down. I just want to feel like my normal self again and i just cant see that happening anytime soon

its making me so miserable.

Within an hour of being awake this morning i was on the verge of tears and feeling really down about everything. I hate feeling so hopeless. No one has told me where my anxiety disorder leaves me and what i do next, ive just been given medication to regulate my heart and anxiety. (Propranalol) Ive searched everything possible and have found nothing that isnt expensive and i cant afford these things im only 17 and get paid £150 per week and i have to £50 of that on my rent per week and then bills and everything else on top. I feel like im just going to be stuck in this situation for the rest of my life, is this unreasonable? I know i have to help myself before i can be helped, but how exactly do i do that?! Ive tried forcing myself to be in a good mood but that just leaves me exhausted and feeling worse. Ive tried forcing myself to be in situations i dont want to be in and got to the point where i felt weak and shaky and couldnt eat.

I feel so helpless. I just need another female to talk to who understands how im feeling i havent got anybody to sit and talk to, and just explain how im feeling and how upset and useless i feel

You lot have made me smile a bit today whilst reading some of your posts in the lounge so thankyou

**Xxsammi28xX** · 09-17-2010 05:44 PM

Alright. I'm 15 years old and I've lived through EXACTLY what you are going through. I've suffered with anxiety and depression since I was 7 years old, so these thoughts are the only I know. I DO want to help you through this because nobody should go through what we feel. And never think that you need to force yourself to be happy or like nothing's wrong. I've been doing that for years until it built up so bad, I had suicidal thoughts. So my best friend told the school guidence counsler, and I met with him later the same day. I used to tell myself that nobody (especially a therapist) could help me, but he really did. And after that I felt better for letting my feelings out. And I think you should do the same and see a therapist. And I do pray for you, and hope these feelings will go away. You deserve to start living again, and take control of your life

**CHANDLERS WISH** · 09-18-2010 02:44 AM

BABY girl This was in May. We are soooo sorry we missed this...

17, paying rent, earning a living, paying for all expenses, my lord, that's too much, too soon in your beautiful life..

It's September, can you up-date us and let us know if this thread is still foremost in your mind.

Your our Little Chuck here

And, I know we make you laugh that's all good but there's more to that in life and when we need each other we need to be there.

Again, sorry we missed this thread.. xx

Thanks to Xsammi to answer today

Which we welcome, to the Forum at 15, .. a new friend?

**Little.Chuck** · 09-18-2010 05:48 AM

Thankyou both

Im happy to say I dont feel like this anymore. Ive really started to take control back and my anxiety disorder is very slowly but surely disappearing.

I feel much, much happier and 60% of the time forget about my anxiety. I do still get the symptoms, but I know how to control them to some extent. I still don't like them but if I want them to go way, Ive got to make them go away.

xxxxxxxxxx

PS. I love paying my rent and bills. It reminds me that Ive actually not dont too bad so far so I dont have to beat myself up because Im not as good as so and so...