Thread: Anxiety Help

I have had anxiety problems for years. The longer it goes on the more and more it effects my life.

My boyfriend and his mother feel it is important I see someone about it. My boyfriend goes on and on about how if I were medicated I would realize how not rational I am sometimes.

I know deep in my heart my anxiety runs my life and not me. The problem is the idea of getting help makes me so uncomfortable I feel like in doing so my whole life will fall out of whack.

I don't have insurance. I don't have extra money.

I don't think he has a logical concept of how mental health works. He insists I will show up and they will put me on something. I don't feel this will happen, even though in a way I wish it would.

I don't want to be roped into anything. I don't want to be pressured. I want to know what is wrong with me. I want options. I don't want to make myself so uncomfortable for however long and not like... Have a way to calm down.. I don't want to take something and it be wrong, but I don't want to go to months of someone telling me that the cause of my problems is in my diet. I mean even if it IS my diet... That probably doesn't make sense.

I don't want life to continue to get exponentially harder for me in trying to get help. I don't want to go broke. I don't want to cross tons of time off my planer that is barely there to begin with. I don't want more things to throw my routine off or more things to make me anxious.....

But I really want help.

The longer it goes on the more physically frustrated I get. I will get so upset over dumb stuff that like, someone will make some complete bs comment about something and I just, I swear if hitting people were not so much against my nature I would have the person pounded into the ground.

I will be at work like, we have to ask for peoples numbers... WHY is it so hard to say no thanks or I'd rather not... Instead people get mad at ME over a stupid company policy and they will do stupid things like look at me and go "NO!" and I REALLY... HONESTLY don't know how many more times someone can do that to me. Like... I say that.. and then I mean that.

I go into work and already expect my day to suck. I fall asleep thinking the next day will suck and it lives up to its potential sucking it up worse than the day before. That is if I sleep at all.. Its 3am here and I'm not sleeping.

I screamed at my boyfriend about the dumbest thing ever in the car the other day. I didn't want to decide where to eat because I had a bad day. He insisted I pick so I got all quiet and just started driving. He started to tell me not to bring work home with me and I just screamed "STOP!" and for the next full min all I wanted to do was stop the car and just get out of it right then and there. It was bogus to him to just have yelled at him like that but like, all I can think is really, he couldn't have taken the clues?!?!? I just expect people to revolve around my moods I guess.. I don't know.. Its hard to tell anymore. I felt SOOO out of control at that moment it was nuts!

How much commitment is treatment for something like anxiety? How expensive is it? Is there anything you CAN get to help calm you down to follow through with treatment or therapy? Its kind of like, I know there are things I will need to do to change. I just know if they say caffeine is the source of my problems, stop drinking it, I will more than likely run and never turn back because not only will I be uncomfortable but they will be stripping me of something that makes me feel right, even if it is bad for me and makes it worse.

Maybe that makes no sense, but I am guessing someone gets it. I'm just scared I think... Because I have no idea what to expect and I want to know what to expect.

Hello Mainlu,

I have a similar feeling I deal with and its labeled anxiety from my doctor. I take a very low dose of celexa every day, and it helps. The anti-anxiety or anti-depression medication are in many different doses and prescriptions, doctors will always start you off on a low dose, and change the drug if its not the right one. It in no way changes who you are, you wont "feel different, or drug'd"... It takes a few weeks to start to work, or before you will feel the benefits of it. The downfall in most cases is some people will experience side effects, like in most drugs, so you see if the benefits outweigh the side effects and decide. These drugs are not addictive, and you wont feel like "I NEED IT" feeling. (which was something i was very worried about, i didnt want to be addicted, and i didnt want to "feel different").

I just knew I needed some help with my anxiety, i had a sore stomach all the time from the constant stress, worry and the feeling i was'nt in control of myself. I dont just use medication, I also use meditation, reading self help books on relaxation techniques and finding some joy in something really helps. One other thing I did was go back to school. I was not happy with what i was doing, so i just left it, and went back to school for something i knew i would love (and im a single mom of 2 kids, so believe me, it wasnt easy, but i was driven to make a difference). It took 2 years of hard work but it has payed off, im happy at work, its a part of who i am now. I know the first step to get help is the hardest, then its so much easier.

Its not forever to get help, you dont need to take medication forever, its to help you help yourself.