My life doesn't 'fit' me anymore?

**little_libra** · 08-03-2010 12:35 AM

I spent the last 2 years crawling myself out of a life dictated by anxiety. I'm only 20...still can't rly stop thinking of my past and I'm totally confused about what I really wanna do with life...I have a job and I'm in school...but I don't really feel like "myself" or feel at home in myself, if that makes any sense? It's like I'm re-discovering my life after fearing it for so long [like 8 years]. I have so many interests and am good at lots of things...I just feel so scattered...I feel really weird. It makes me want to cry because I don't feel very secure. It's like I woke up in a strange world that doesn't quite fit anymore.

Any advice would be appreciated.

**Mes T** · 08-03-2010 03:51 AM

I think almost everyone feels exactly like that at some point in life, especially when they're young.

You in college? Decided on a major?

You could try focusing on one or two interests (don't spread yourself too thin though) and see what clubs you could join at school, something like that.

Get a new wardrobe. That helps me when I feel myself take a shift on the inside.

**CHANDLERS WISH** · 08-17-2010 08:35 PM

When something traumatic happens in our lives, it can take along time to heal.

Every 4 years or so, we change, we grow up, we feel different about ourselves, where we were, where we are heading, it's natural to feel this way, your changing.

But you do have to let go of that past... It's what is stopping you seeing your future and therefore, your trapped between your past and your present.

Did you ever seek counseling? Remember, our mind is powerful it will store things.. But, just as it is powerful in that regard, it can also turn that negative, that traumatic time, into a "ahh I understand", it wasn't me, it wasn't my fault, it is okay, I've grown in that understanding, I can move on...

CW

**sarahlee20** · 02-09-2011 01:50 AM

i understand where you are coming from completely. I am 23 yrs old. I feel the same as well and right now going through some family stuff and i feel stuck in the middle. All i want to do is go to school and "escape" from this life. Like you i've been to college on and off for 5 yrs. I have alot of hobbies and believe i am good at some things i do. However I feel "lost" just like you are. I just wish i could speed up time to where my life "makes sense" I also think it would be helpful if i could go see someone a therapist or something. I would if i could....

**Midnite** · 02-23-2011 12:26 AM

It sounds like you've grown to the point you are ready to start seeking a new change. This is completely normal and part of the healing process. Fear sucks, it sometimes keeps us locked in places. The purpose of fear is to keep us alive but in our society the fight or flight tends to get a bit out of control. Take a moment and breathe, and in this breathe hear this message. There is a powerful and wonderful Goddess inside that is awakening, even when you don't feel secure she is there and beginning to stir. The world is a strange and scary place and if your in school I'd suggest looking to see if they offer free counseling. It can do wonders to have a trained professional in a safe environment to just talk to and process your thoughts and fears.

I am reading that your things don't feel like they fit anymore and that is often intiution and your heart telling you that your energy has changed and you may be out growing your old life. I agree with CW we are ofter remade every few years. Being in the moment, here and now with what is going on with you is precious. You're like the catapillar in the cacoon. Just when the catapiller thought the world had ended it turned into a butterfly. It took some stretching and hard work to get out of the cacoon, but when the butterfly did she flew and fluttered around all the beauty and flowers in the world. Creating art with her expression of life.

I work with clients just like you all the time and my friends and even I have all gone through this fear. Like energy tends to attract like energy so believe me when I tell you that you are right where you should be and growing every day. If you'd like a tool to help you when you feel undone, breathe. Take a few deep and slow breaths. There is a band called superchick that might really vibe with as well.

**JuliaBarill** · 02-23-2011 08:16 PM

your depressd hunny. And this time its totally normal to be after what youve been through. Yes you feel weird. But dont be scard. Theres nothing to be scard of. You dont haft to immediatly know what you want in life. that would be a little "weird" if you ask me. ive been battling anxiety and depression sice i was 12. i am now 20 also. I know what your going through. Just know that your not alone. Even when you think you are. "your not"