It sounds like you have put too much on your plate and things are starting to "spill off" so to speak. You mentioned the abandonment issues and it causing you anxiety for most of your life and that you have been in therapy. Has anything happened recently that made/makes you feel the same way (abandoned) like you did when you were little? (like did a friend or family member move away, or cut off contact etc...?) If so that could have triggered the same reaction in you and with all the stress. If something like that didn't happen then I think it may be just stress related because you have taken on so much responsiblity. How long ago did your doctor give you medication? Often times with those types of medications it takes 2-4 weeks before you start to feel/see any changes. The medication has to build up in your system before it levels you out. If it has been over 4 weeks and you haven't seen/felt any improvements or things feel worse go back to your doctor and you may need a different medication or another medication in addition. Has all of this stress, hectic schedule had any affect on your sleep? (are you sleeping more, or having difficulty sleeping?). I think once the medication gets you leveled out and you find a way to get into a routine that works well for you, or find some way to schedule in some down time you will start feeling better. If you haven't already talk to your boyfriend and tell him everything you are going through right now and ask him for his love and support. Good luck.