I just feel so blah

**LadyPinky** · 03-02-2011 06:13 PM

Ok so I have suffered from depression for several years now. Im currently on meds that seem to be working for me most days. Just lately everything seems to get to me more then it should. Last week I got a rejection letter from the graduate school I was planning on going to in the fall. Now I have no idea what Im gonna do with my life or what type of school or training Im gonna do or what I want to do with my life. Even though I enjoy both my jobs, I have one full time and one part time, I feel restless and antzy at both. Things are going great with my boyfriend we love each other so much and have a great time together. But all I can think about is how we dont live together yet, or why we havent taken the next step in our relationship by now. I dont know why I keep dwelling on the bad things when i have so much good in my life. I see people with things I want like being married, haveing a baby or owning my own house and I get almost anexity attacks. Im debateing going to talk to my doctor or a counsuler. But im no really sure how much that would help. Any opinions or thoughts would be helpful. Thanks so much.

**karennicholls** · 03-03-2011 02:48 AM

please seek help! i too suffer from depression and have downright refused to take any drugs but instead opted for treatment. please don't think i am saying the drugs don't help, it s diffrent for different people but talking about it and having therapy can realy help. i found that talking to my friends and family helped a little but when talking to a psychiatrist it was so much easier to open up and be honest because i knew they wouldn't judge me....they would have after all heard it all before. I really would urge you to look into it. I am just about recovering from my depression now but am still dealing with the effects it has left behind. i hope you manage to find the right help

**CHANDLERS WISH** · 03-03-2011 03:23 AM

Originally Posted by LadyPinky

Ok so I have suffered from depression for several years now. Im currently on meds that seem to be working for me most days. Just lately everything seems to get to me more then it should. Last week I got a rejection letter from the graduate school I was planning on going to in the fall. Now I have no idea what Im gonna do with my life or what type of school or training Im gonna do or what I want to do with my life. Even though I enjoy both my jobs, I have one full time and one part time, I feel restless and antzy at both. Things are going great with my boyfriend we love each other so much and have a great time together. But all I can think about is how we dont live together yet, or why we havent taken the next step in our relationship by now. I dont know why I keep dwelling on the bad things when i have so much good in my life. I see people with things I want like being married, haveing a baby or owning my own house and I get almost anexity attacks. Im debateing going to talk to my doctor or a counsuler. But im no really sure how much that would help. Any opinions or thoughts would be helpful. Thanks so much.

In my opinion? certainly the meds calm you but look at you? Tow jobs, a relationship you love, that is not something someone suffering from depression can do, you overcome it, it's not the drugs, however, you still can't handle rejection...You get the positives,but you really don't see them for their worth, you still till today see "negative"... What is negative? perhaps that's not the course you were meant to go down in life, is that really your passion? Or perhaps your so happy with finances and your man that you didn't give it your all? So the positive is you have money and a beautiful man, oops, I didn't give it my all, oh well lets try again..

You are concentrating on "one thing" him, marriage.... You need now communication with him ,where he sees all of this heading, your lives together...

You have gained so much this past year, and grown, and worked, your butt off, you just don't know where you are going.

Communicating helps and is a must in a relationship.....don't know how long you've been together but marriage should be forever and being happy together leads to it, maybe your pushing it, maybe your bringing more to the table and settled, maybe,your finding yourself finally.

What does he do,

What are your two jobs, do you like what you do

What did you apply for

How old are you two

And, what are both of your values thoughts...

See we can speculate to accumulate but what will that do to help you?

CW

**LadyPinky** · 03-03-2011 01:28 PM

Originally Posted by CHANDLERS WISH

What does he do,

What are your two jobs, do you like what you do

What did you apply for

How old are you two

And, what are both of your values thoughts...

See we can speculate to accumulate but what will that do to help you?

CW

He goes to school and workd night audit at a hotel. We both make enough money to live together but hes being stuborn about it. I work as a Teacher Aide with speical education students and as a Cashier at Lowes. I enjoy being a teacher aide but I dont think its what I want to do the rest of my life. I applyed to the Library Science program online at SUNY Buffalo. I just turned 25 in Feb and hes 24 will be 25 in May. We know we want to get married, have kids together etc etc. Agreeing on when we should move in together and such is what we seem to but heads about at the moment.

**LadyPinky** · 03-03-2011 01:32 PM

Thanks for your advice. I plan on looking into it soon.

**CHANDLERS WISH** · 03-03-2011 01:49 PM

At 25 years of age, your friends around you are married, or getting married, or having a baby, it's is absolutely normal to have that "feeling" of being left out, and getting older.

I would say that he's "learning" all day and working at night, so the little time he has a present probably he wants to chill, sleep and off course catch up with you... Perhaps, he just wants to finish school have a decent job, and then settle down....

For a man 25 is still young, and living together is like marriage

As long as you two are happy when together, keep concentrating both of you on your future and enjoy each other, 1, 2 more years is no big deal, you have the rest of your lives together...

CW