Thread: I Dreamt of Cheating...

I just woke up from a pretty disturbing dream. Well, the dream itself wasn't that disturbing and, like most dreams, it felt so real.

It started out with me and my boyfriend going back to my hometown to an office party (this office and it's people were actually from previous dreams I've had, totally made up) and my best friend "Jason"* was there. I was feeling depressed at seeing him because he didn't even seem to notice me even after being gone all that time. There was a big bonfire and me and my bf walked over to it to chat with some people, "Jason" was right next to us and was calling somebody named 'Karen' or 'Kasey' (neither of them even close to my name) and when I turned around instinctively to look, he was looking right at me and smiling. He then asked me something (I forget exactly), but it was basically to go on a walk with him away from everyone. I did. As we walked, he started saying: "[My name], I've always loved you and I know you have too." I said yes...
"When you were here I used to fill my problems up with seeing you, but now that you're gone..."
He trailed off, and then kissed me, and I kissed him back, then things started getting really physical (though I'm pretty shy). I knew I was cheating in the dream and was already thinking up excuses to say to my bf. Around this point we noticed my sister looking for me, and "Jason" and I started running to hide somewhere, but having fun while doing so. My other sister then found me, saw the two of us just standing there, and walked away after giving a knowing smile (totally unlike her character). Then my cat's horny yowling woke me up(right next to my current bf, of course). -_-

You could say I had, and maybe still have, a crush on this friend, but he and I are polar opposites religiously and politically, and we'd never work long-term. Maybe I just miss him as a friend? I would never cheat on my bf with him or anyone, and it worries me to be dreaming, and feeling these feelings. Is this just a result of random synapses at night? Do I need to keep myself more in check?


*He and I haven't talked really at all since I've moved, and we used to tell each other everything and hang out a lot.