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So I'm neurotic and it's ruining me and my relationships with my loved ones, how can I stop being neurotic?
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We can only learn to love by loving. - Iris Mudoch, British writer
Get professional help.
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When I was about 11-15 I had a difficult period in my life, it changed me quite alot. The quality that has effected me the most, or the most negatively atleast is my neuroticism.
At first I didn't mind it; it helped me be empathic, perceptive, improved my analitical skills and kept me out of trouble.
As I've grown older my neurotic nature has grown and deepend and now it controls me. I find socialising hard, and sustaining relationships (whatever the nature)even harder, I come across as autistic at times, I am boring when I have so much to say, I'm monotone, I comes across as arrogant, self-righteous insencere, emotionless, cold. I over analyse to the point of convincing myself of things I don't instinctively believe. My previously almost flawed logic has turned into irrationality, my thought patterns are OCD in their nature, I don't know myself, I know the way I act, I hate myself.
And I hated how that sounded, I sounded so self pittying, no.
Some people are awkward in the growing up stages, feel dorkish are book worms, just don't mix well....yet those people end up with "real friends and relationships" because they know themselves and what they want out of life.
Don't over-analyse every little thing and don't have such great expectations of yourself or place those on others....
Start to say no to your OCD behaviour one by one, when you catch it, do the opposite....
When you do something do it because you want to, or you want to do it for her, not as a challenge that you have to make it happen, or be good at it......
You don't sound self pittying rather, trying to find your way...
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Do we not realise that in order to find a soul
It doesn't happen over night
if truth were to be told.
Like everything in life that's hard to achieve
you must believe!
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