Thread: different medications...not working

First off, I am not a doctor, and cannot and do not give medical advice. What I'm about to share is only me, my personal experience, and how I chose to handle things that perhaps you can benefit from and explore for yourself, perhaps with a good, trusted, alternative doctor/practitioner:

I had severe depression and anxiety as a kid and through much of my young adult life. Was absent from school constantly, could not go to college because of the depression/panic, had only one relationship as a young adult, missed out on everything during those years, and the only thing that saved me from suicide during most of this time was my good fortune in having a few close friends, an ok family support system, and on-and-off "functional" alcohol and drug abuse to manage the symptoms.

The last time I took some anti-depressants was when I was very ill, in a lot of pain many years ago, and the combination of existing depression coupled with severe chronic pain, doctors put me on Lexipro in an attempt to manage what was slowly taking my life.

I didn't actually WANT to die during any of this physical illness, was not suicidal for many years at that point. I was just suffering terribly WITH the illness, but doctors felt this was my best option to manage to situation.

The Lexipro put me in a never-never nightmare land of living h*ll within four days of taking it. The physical pain was bad enough; to be in a sort of waking-nightmare that would not stop, with horrifying imagery that I could never even imagine beforehand, every time I closed my eyes, forced me to throw out half my belongings so I could end my life as soon as possible to escape the inescapable Lexipro-lunacy. It was beyond horrifying, and since surviving that, I never...EVER...judge folks, and will never, who take their own lives. Misery can reach levels that aren't even imaginable, and are literally completely unbearable.

Needless to say, I stopped that stuff immediately, once I realized THAT was causing these horrible symptoms. Life was bad enough, I certainly didn't need MORE problems.

THAT SAID...

I'm WAY past all that now. And I personally will never take a prescription drug ever again, unless I am on my deathbed. And even then I will only CONSIDER it.

Getting into a healthy lifestyle...ditching alcohol and drugs completely...checking our "feel good" vitamin D levels per Dr. Holick...getting on a sound nutrition plan...Sunshine...bare feet on the beach or grass grounding yourself to the earth's electron flow...Nature...Friends...Family...laughter and the positive hormonal changes it causes (watch funny videos on youtube)...CAN ALL DO WONDERS.

THEN we have all sorts of really awesome self-help audios to choose from, even sound technologies, light technologies, and other alternative tactics, and then books like The Power of Now being paradigm-shifting for me. I explored a TON of options. There are MANY. AND there are a TON of people who've been where you are, or at least a similar place. And that alone can be very comforting.

I literally went from the pits of h*ll those years ago, to finding something akin to Heaven in the day to day living in the moment, out of the mind-muck-mess, and just BEING. It's not a religion, it's not a belief system, it's simply a tool, something that can be learned, that enables us to shut off the source of the problem...our incessant, obsessive, mind-thoughts...so that we can see life from a wonderful new perspective, and then be able to return to our thoughts, much better able to manage them. This progress has STAYED with me all these years now, and I've had almost no regression backwards at all.

I was one of the bad cases...I was told this by professionals...so if I can accomplish this new life, I believe almost everyone can.

This was my path, and it worked for me. The motivation to explore OPTIONS alone, will take anyone far.

Again, I am absolutely not suggesting you get off your meds, and am in no way suggesting you do anything different. I am only telling you what worked a miracle in my life; diet/nutrition, healthy lifestyle, seeking out alternative options, being very open-minded, and living in the moment.