I caught my boyfriend of 1 1/2 year masturbating himself while watching on line porn.
I understand men watch porn. The other day I checked his on line History and I saw he logs into the website everyday. I asked him if he was an addict he swore he wasn't he logs in when he is bored. We spend a lot of time together, we do a lot of things together and we enjoy being close. Regarding sex our sex life is good, it could be better. Sometimes he says he's tired. I understand but i feel he is tired for me but not for watching girls on line.
I'm 30 y/o and he's 41 and I like him and I want to have sex with him everyday. But I can't stop feeling bad about this. I feel he doesn't like me enough. Like if I'm not good enough. He also looks at girls on the street I know guys do that but since I caught him masturbating I wonder if he is being turned on by those girls on the street. I feel this situation is affecting my selfesteem. I already talked to him, He says he's far away from being an addict and that I need to trust him. That we have a great relantionship and I'm just looking for drama.
Is he really an addict? How can I handdle this?

Its a hard call to know what he is thinking. I tend to think that if he is on there everyday, he is creating a habit he possible cannot break? Its good you talked with him so he knows how you feel. I think this relationship will move ahead or stop depending on how you handle this. He seems like he wants to be in a relationship with you from what he says. Some men are gaga girl crazy, is he that type that looks at everything that walks down the street?

Best of luck to you.

I think its perfrectly normal for men to look at other women and watch porn. Its heathly, just like women look at other men & may watch porn. But if he's doing it on a daily basis that doesn't look good and I think would make any woman feel insecure! There should be some sort of half way meeting in this. He should respect that you are uncomfortable with him doing this regularly and understand it makes you feel insecure, how would he like it!?
Maybe spicing up the sex like by either being more spontaneous, using toys,role playing or even a strip tease are a couple of ideas to maybe change things up so there its not so tiresome. This may help his situation and your own too of course, cause thats who matters here!
But, bottom line if you have tried everything, and he doesn't respect how you feel, its something you need to consider long term. Its not good to have low self-esteem when its not necessary!

Hope things improve! Good luck!