Thread: please, please, help

HI, everybody. Please, help me to understand myself. I can watch porno, when i am alone and it's hard sometimes to stop - i like it.

But when my man looks at another girl or tried yesterday to watch porno with me and start touching me - i went crazy, i do not want any sex, any touch. Am i jelous?

I do not know - more angry at myself as i think it's my biggets trouble in relationships. After this i have problem to get naked even when i am alone, i am closing up completely and hate any touch to the point i am scared physicaly hurt another person.i hate myself. It is not his fault.

Is it in my head? I an trying hard to an analise my past - may be something happened to me, that trigging this effect. I have to go to the same bed with my best friend, with my man, whom i like alot, but to ask him not to get close again? How long he will stand this?

Please, talk to me, somebody tell me something. I know you are not Samaritans, but, please

Thank you

Yeah. I do not like it when my guy look sat porn either. And I don’t have a self esteem issue I know that and so does he, and how is it suppose to make me feel. You know when he met me I was 115 now I’m 140, and like I look good sure. I don’t know. But you know he hides the porn when I come into a room and stuff he will close the window on the computer, and one time. I told him I was going take a shower then I got side tracked and he was like
“Why aren’t you showering?
And I was like “why do you care?”, when I came back he went into the bedroom and told me to “come here”, I told him “just a second” and I wanted to know why he wanted me out… so I checked the computer’s history because I had a felling he had been up to something and he was looking at porn, it was Lindsey Lohan and I had a DVD with her on the cover on the computer desk. Then he was all horny and ready to go when I went into the bedroom just moments later. I was all ed off, did not say anything and just went to bed, but like I am I not good enough anymore, can you not think of me.
And it’s not like we have sex all the time, and he’s this total horn dog, like I want to have sex all the time, and we do it like one a week. Do the time that we do have sex, can he think of me, is that asking too much.
Then sometime around then (this was a few weeks ago) we were drinking at my friend’s house with a group of people and he was drinking. And told me he wanted to talk to me. I thought Ok and I really wanted to know what was up. He said he wanted to have a “different type of fun tonight” and I was all confused. In short, he wanted to a threesome with one of m best friend’s who has a boyfriend, who’s like not sluty you know. He said he didn’t; want me to be mad, or be mad in the morning. I was drinking too and said no she wouldn’t do it (and she would not have) and that I wasn’t mad, it’s “every guy’s fantasy.” We have been together 3 years and now we are married. This is a first he has every said something. I’m not completely offended of the completely threesome thing, but as a married person (his idea), I don’t think its right. And How should I feel about this. I haven’t brought this up to him since either.