Hello.

I'd just like to share my story.

I've tried God knows how many times to end my life. My first attempt was at 9. I've overdosed many times, all failed, even on the most lethal doses, which shows someone is truly watching over me.
I've been self harming since I was roughly 7/8.
I have ADHD.
I have anxiety, possible OCD(obsessive compulsive disorder).
I'm not sure about depression, but it's a possibility too.

I'd just like to say that you're not alone.
Many people feel low, anxious, hurt, suicidal, etc, but there is help, so please, don't feel like you're not worth it, because you are.

I've been to many people for help, and my latest Psychiatrist has helped me so much, I now know why I am the way I am. And I don't care what other people say, this is how I am, this is me. I'm currently getting CBT(Cognitive Behavior Therapy) and soon to be having Exposure Response Preventation. I'm going to learn how to deal with life, and the problems I will face or have faced.

I haven't got much of a mother, she drinks on a daily basis. My biological father wants nothing to do with me, but I have found my true father, someone who really does love me, for me.

My message here is:
Help is out there. Don't suffer in silence...

A few years back, I was in such a dark place. But there are people who can help, not just professionals, but friends, family.

Reach out for help, because nobody should have to feel so low, so anxious, frustrated, suicidal, worthless...

If any of you need to talk, please do send me a message...

You are absoulutley right that NO ONE should feel that low or anything else. And you should be proud of yourself for reaching out to help others by being willing to talk about all you have been through. Anytime that you need someone to talk to just reach out and we will be here. We have our own little community of people who care right here.

V

Thank you shadowrose

I just know what it feels like to feel as if nobody can help, or that I'll never get out of this dark place, but I'm managing to do it, day by day, it's no rush, just take it one day at a time.

I also know that when you've been in a dark place for so long, you actually want to stay there, because you know no different place, but that's just awful, and nobody should have to suffer, physically and emotionally...

Just have to say this tonight. If you read the thread I started it explains about the fight, but one of the things that was brought up was that my bf 10 yr old wants to be able to run around town by himself. We explained to him about pervs and that bad stuff can happen. He said that won't happen to me. I told him don't ever think that. I thought it and guess what, something bad happened to me on my 11th birthday by my brothers best friend whom I looked upon as an adopted big brother (not like I really needed another one, have 3 already). But to get to my point, I want to let you know that you are not alone either sunriseSunset, I was molested and it really messed with my mind. I got into cutting, thought often about suicide, but never tried it. I was locked in my own little he11. I never told anyone about it cause I thought it was my fault. I got past the cutting with help from friends. But I understand how it feels to want to do it. I was 15 when I stopped, am 30 now and have not done it since, but I won't lie, when things were really bad, I thought about it. I was married, he was an abusive, cheating, controlling bas**** and I put up with it for 3 years before I woke up and got out of it. So many times I felt worthless and the only thing that kept me going was my kids and one thought "I am not a quitter, I refuse to go out like that. Besides, it'd make too many damddd people happy." I also have a wacked out sense of humor that kept me going.

I'm 30, mostly happy, haven't cut since 15, have a good man (even though he has problems of his own) have 2 beautiful daughters, a good job, if I can do it, you can too. Just take it one day at a time, have a wicked sense of humor, and most of all DON'T SELL YOURSELF SHORT! You are lovable, you mean the world to people even if they don't tell you that, you deserve to be happy, and you didn't do anything to deserve the bad things that happen to you.

Hope this encourages anybody else out there to step forward and talk. It's very brave of Sunset to put all that she did post to help others and she's only 15, she is going to grow up to be one he11 of an adult and I have a feeling she will accomplish great things in her life and reach a lot of people.

V

I personally would like to thank both of you for sharing your stories, and encouragements and strength.

I have just written on a thread:-

"I'm a Mistress and I need advice".

Recently there was a post from Lostiwthoutyou081280... We replied.. She obviously read that particular thread, related and posted.

We replied.

I have just read an up-date on that thread from her. She has just gotten out of hospital after attempting suicide.

I have asked her that she reads your thread and replies, and talk to you both and us off course on this thread.

Thank you again for caring, sharing and being here on this Forum not just for your own self needs in life, but for that of others.

Appreciated.

Chandlers Wish.