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After reading your post I thought you would be someone I could maybe talk to. I am having the hardest time of my life right now, and yesterday I even had an anxiety attack and I am not dealing well with it, donīt have anyone to talk to about this.
I am 33 years old and have two kids, was a single mom until this past August when I met a man I love very much. He has been really good to me and my girls and I really, really am very much in love with him.
But, I have breast issues. They are, in my opinion, too small. This had never been an issue for me, I have a B cup, and they were always firm until I had my girls. Now not only are they small, they also sag a bit, and when Iīm either ovulating or my period is about to come, they get a bit engorged and they are not all that bad,but the rest of the month I feel like they are only skin. I didnīt care, until now. My boyfriend loves big breasts, and when he sees a girl with big boobs he canīt help but look and say something about it, does it with women on tv too. I am feeling SOOOOO bad about this!! I had never thought of surgery, but now it is all I can think about. I told him about it, and he thinks is great that I do it. This really hurt my feelings, not sure why. I mean, he supports it, and the idea was mine, but I guess what I wanted to hear was that he likes me just the way I am, but now I know he doesnīt.
I am getting very depressed about this. I am so obsessed that even I look at other womenīs boobs, to see which are bigger than mine, and I hate myself for this. I was NEVER like this. I never had issues with it, and now I do, and I donīt feel like I can tell him about it. Donīt get me wrong, I think he would apologize for making me feel bad and would stop doing it, but I am EMBARRASED to talk to him about it. I donīt even want him to see me completely naked. I always leave my bra on when we have sex, and he doesnīt seem to even notice, since he pays no mind to my chest anyway and this makes me feel terrible all over again.
Gosh, I needed to let that out.
I canīt wait to have the surgery, and I will do it eventually, but was also wondering if there is a problem later if you get pregnant. He wants us to have a baby, but in a few years time, and I canīt wait that long to do the surgery, Iīll go crazy before that!
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