Thread: Abortion

I know everyone has their different opinions on abortion. Some are against it with their reason, some are for it with their reasons, and others could really care less about the choices that someone else makes. But I want to hear the opinions from them all.

I have had two abortions. One was when I was eighteen, with a stupid boyfriend and still living with my father. I was about to graduate and was working fast-food. I knew I would not be able to give a child the life it deserves.

The second time was when I was nineteen. I had just moved out of my fathers and was still building my own foundation. Was working a good paying job (at fast-food still) but the man who would've been the father of the child was someone I had just started seeing and he wanted me to have the abortion. I on the other hand felt I wanted to keep it since having another abortion was something I did not want to do. But I respected his feelings and went ahead with it, also feeling it was the best thing to do.

I am so afraid of getting pregnant again. I know, if I ever were to get pregnant again, I would definetly keep the baby. No questions asked. I am at the age now where I can have a child without being looked down at, and I'm making my own money and I know I could do it. I actually WANT a baby SOOOO badly now after having the two abortions. But I'm sooo afraid that it's going to happen the wrong way. Everyone has those plans to get married and have a family. But I know that plans don't always turn out. And with my luck, I am going to have a baby with a guy I've only been dating a couple of months and he;s going to turn into a loser and run away and I'm going to be left all alone. And that's not really what scares me. I could take care of a child by myself. I'm just afraid that I would not be able to give the child the life it deserves.

I grew up always wishing for a different life. A lot of my childhood was spent around a lot of negative factors. Alcoholism, drugs, homelessness, fights, lack of money. I don't want any of that for my child. NONE OF IT!! Even if none of that is a part of the family I create, I know my child will see it outside of home. I just don't want my baby to associate with their home. I want my child to feel safe with me. To not feel scared, or feel hungry, or homesick.

I'm afraid those thoughts will worry me to have a third abortion. You can hate me for it all you want. Trust me, I do hate myself sometimes. But I panic. I just want to do what's best.

What do you think of all this?