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I'm 18 and a few weeks ago I posted about unusual spotting. A week or so later I found my self curled up on the floor in extreme pain and bleeding all over the place. A few hours of telling myself it was just cramps turned into a 10 hour ER stay.
I was there alone when they told me I was pregnant, the next news to come would be that it was ectopic, luckily by then my boyfriend and bestfriend had made it. Ectopic pregnancy happens when a fertilized eggs becomes implanted outside the uterus, in my case it was on one of my ovaries, but it's more common to be located in the fallopian tube. It was a horrible feeling. I was told I couln't get pregnant, and now I was, being told it couldn't go full term. Instead of surgery, I opted for a shot of methotrexate (a chemotherapy drug, a low dose though). I'm kind of regreting it, it comes with bleeding and pain. The side effects (which don't always happen) are some hair loss and nausea.
I'm writing this because I went to the doctors and they told me everything was fine. But when you know somethings wrong push the issue nobody knows your own body like you do. Here are somes signs.

Early stages: missed menstrual period, unexplained spotting or bleeding, lower abdominal pain or cramps.
Late stages; Sudden sharp severe abdominal pain caused by rupture, dizziness fainting or shock (paleness, rapid heart beat, dropped blood pressure and cold sweats, either before or with the pain)

In the end with each passing day I realize more and more why I couldn't have it, and how much I wish I could have. It's painful in every way, physically, mentally, emotionally. I found myself cracking up last night, but I'm back in my right state of mind. Thanks to a wonderful support team, my boyfriend and his family and my best friend. I'm dreading having sex agian but thats another issue for another day. I hope this helped someone out there. Early prevention, in everything, saves lives.

Iseulda

I'm sorry you went through this, tweet, and so sorry for your loss.

Allow yourself to grieve, there is no shame in it - and thank you for seeking to help others with your experience. That's incredibly brave and generous of you.

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Rather at once our time devour, / Than languish in his slow-chapp'd power.
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And tear our pleasures with rough strife / Thorough the iron gates of life.
Thus, though we cannot make our sun / Stand still, yet we will make him run.

tweet

Thank you for saying so. Any support does me good so really thank you so much. =]

HALFNOTHING

hey cheer up girl.. you could have one if you want it.. you know.. having some is not necessarily of it comes on your own.. there are lot of children seeking to have parent like you.. I have 5 kids with 23 years old and only 1 of them is my true child..

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mye_mye

what you mean here?

you had 5 kids? and only one alive?/survive?

ThexMrs

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. I'm sure this is a very painful time for you. I'm happy to hear that you have a great support team helping you through this. I wish you the best of luck in the future.

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hello_pitty

I think she means she has 5 kids but only one is her biological child.

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jdranch12

I know what you are going through. I had the same thing happen to me about a month ago. I got the shot, also. I am still in pain, having cramping in my abdomin and queezy stomach. Are you feeling any of that? I am sorry for your loss.