Had My First Miscarriage/D&C :(

**Beesmommy** · 10-12-2010 09:06 PM

I Was diagnosed with Endometriosis almost a year ago...Well in August i found out i was 7 weeks and 3 days pregnant , was soo happy, went to my first ultrasound and they said the baby has a very healthy heartbeat and looks like its growing at a good rater...go back a few weeks later because i was in horrible pain to find out the baby's heartbeat stopped :'( so i had to be scheduled for a D&C, my doctor said the Endometriosis is what caused the death of my baby :'( i'm so hurt by this still and i went for the D&C on September 24th, is that normal? shouldn't i be somewhat over it by now? everytime i see a baby on tv or when im out walking around a mall or something and i see a baby i just want to break down and cry..:'( i didn't think it would be this hard still...how can i cope with this? i was so ready to have another baby, i have a 5 yr old son which he is my world but i was ready to have another one

will this hurt ever go away??

**WildChild** · 10-12-2010 11:40 PM

The hurt will subside but you were happy and excited about another child and you lost it. You need time to grieve. It might help to create a letting go ceremony to say a loving good bye.

I saw one of my sisters through this twice and even though it was many years ago and she did finally carry a healthy baby to term, I know there are times that is still causes her a pang of grief.
This is very normal. Be gentle with yourself.

**Beesmommy** · 10-13-2010 06:49 AM

Thank You WildChild, I Hope I Can Have Another Baby With No Complications...

But Thank You For Your Kind Words

**Kylie07** · 10-14-2010 07:35 AM

Hi, I know exactly how you feel...when I had my miscarriage in September of '07 I could barely stand to look at a pregnant woman or babies without crying or feeling horrible. I didnt even want to watch Lifetime Movie Network and I love Lifetime Movie Network. (I know thats extreme right). The hurt will get better with time as did with me. I promise that it will get better just give it time. HUG

**Beesmommy** · 10-14-2010 12:20 PM

Thank You Kylie, It is still very hard, i try to keep myself busy and not think about it, but to be honest i seem to think of it more at nighttime, before i go to bed, or when its quiet once my sons in bed, i just cry and cry....i know i will never forget about it, but would be nice to try and cope and know that it just wasnt meant to be right now, but thank u!! sorry to hear about your miscarriage hun xo