Thread: Sad and Frustrated :(

I have been trying to get pregnant for god knows how long but nothing. About 6 months ago my period started to regulate itself so my husband and I both decided to try and have a baby. I had my period on the 4th of June and I was also taking fertility pills as well. Then all of a sudden my period is irregular again. I had my period again on the 29th of June and it was really heavy. Since then I have been getting dizzy spells, feeling nauseous, tenderness in my breast and tired all the time. I decided to take a pregnancy test but it came out negative. I felt so hurt and frustrated because I actually thought that I was pregnant until I saw that the test was negative. Last year I missed my period for 4 months but it turned out to be a false alarm and after that my period has been so irregular until like i said 6 months ago it regulated itself. Before then I gave up on trying to have kids. But once my period started to get back to regular, we decided to try again. We thought that the pills would help but I dont' know. It might have made things worse for me I'm not sure. I know I keep babbling on and on and as you can tell I am very frustrated. I guess I'm just tired of people asking me, "Don't you want kids?" The last time I heard that I just broke down and started crying because I do want kids I really do, and for someone to ask me, "Oh, don't you want kids?" is really a pain. I am the only child and my aunt keeps telling me that I should be like my cousin and hurry up and have kids. First of all, when my cousin got pregnant my aunt wanted her to have an abortion and now she has the nerve to tell me to hurry up and have kids so that my mom can have grandkids that she'll love just like her (meaning my aunt)??????? Oh please whatever lol. I want to have kids because I think I'll be a great mom and I have so much love to give to a child. I'm just really tired of seeing people have kids who don't even want kids in the first place. To me, being a mother is a blessing and I'm hoping that soon I will be blessed in that way. Some people tell me not to think about it, but the people who are telling me that are already parents. It's kind of hard for someone who doesn't have kids to not think about it. I have tried the whole lifting your legs routine and the fertility pills but nothing is helping me. I'm still hoping that one day soon I will become a mother. I just want to be able to kiss my kids boo boo when they have an accident, walk them to school and cry when i have to leave the class room, have them come to me on mother's day and say I love you Happy Mother's Day. It's things like that, that hurts me whenever I find out that i'm not pregnant. Whew!!!!!! I think I've vented enough and by the look of things I don't think that I made any sense at all. Anyway, thank you for letting me vent. I have no one else to vent to this way. Thanks and take care everyone

I'm so sorry to hear about you losing your baby I can't imagine what you went through or how you felt. But I can tell you that my prayers and best wishes are with you always. My husband and I had a long talk last night and he compared my situtation with him wanting to be a champion poker player lol. Sorry my husband isn't the lovey dovey type as you all can tell lol. He really didn't know what to say so he just came up with comparing everything to poker lol. He keeps telling me that one day it'll happen and that we just have to be patient, but honestly I have no patience when it comes to having a baby. I really have to work on that part. But I guess for now I just have to wait and see.