Thread: Marriage possibly disolving

Thank you :P

makes me feel good to hear someone say that. I felt pathetic when this first kicked off, felt like I had lost my dignity, it felt as if no one understood what she meant to me and what it felt like to lose such a connection. (co-workers, sometimes its hard working with a bunch of barrel chested freedom fighters, lol, emotions / feelings are dirty words!! haah)

I thought life was over as it was, it felt like it was ending, I had never felt such pain in my life. But the more and more I have read about marriage, talked with some close friends who have been through this sort of thing, as well as all of you on this forum who have answered me / sent me messages and even a book to me here in Iraq (thank you No1), its helped me through it. All the while I have been trying very hard to remain civil, strengthening in my faith which I had lost along the way. And just trying to not have too many delusional / greedy wants or desires for AFTER its all done, after all, I must provide for my son now, (I have been filling my evenings looking up toddler furniture online, there is some fun stuff out there, he's gonna love his room, haha!! I cant wait, time to paint a mural on his wall!!! :P )

just hearing a lot of responses has helped me look at this logically, socialization has helped out, even getting hit on by a few women has helped (kinda nudging the confidence back in the right direction, even if I just simply be friendly to them and go about my day, which is what I have done, no need to dive into relationships quite yet) It still does hurt, and I imagine it will for a long long time, especially when I get home to the empty house, but what can ya do but push through. She left me the bedroom set..... ... yay.... I really did not want that after what she did on it, for who knows how long, ignorance is bliss.... that's for sure. SO, THE day I get back, that mattress is going to the dump and I am going shopping for a new one. I can get use to the furniture again, and if not, I will just sell it. But I will not sleep on that mattress again, need some new sheets and blankets too!


so, I am just trying to remain positive, looking forward to seeing my son, praying for his safety and that he does not forget me. I am nervous about being a "single" father, but it will move along nicely with time, and I hope someday in life he will appreciate the things that I will do for him.

just gotta work it one week at a time, be a good boy when he's with me, and then when he's at mommy's house, go a little nuts and have some fun :P

so, thank you, thank you, thank you.

I dont want to end this thread because I really like the feedback, its something I look forward to checking daily honestly. If its something other people can read and see what may be happening to them, I think that is awesome, and if its something that is just something to read and you have nothing to say, then no worries. I appreciate the comments and what not. Its helped me through this, the most difficult time of my life (so far).