Thread: End of Silence!

Originally Posted by Joy

I've reaid all the posts Lost and my advise to you is really work on healing yourself. Take all the angry energy you have and work it into something positive.

Join a gym or kickboxing or something to that nature to really pound something. That's what your words tell me you wanna do. You really would like nothing more than to make this woman pay. The only way to really make that happen is make yourself into a better woman. Don't let this beat you down any further. Rise up and be more of a success in your life. Be a better lover, wife, mother, employee, whatever you take self worth in.

Focus all that angry negative energy into something really positive for yourself and your family or just for yourself. You have to focus and really chanel that energy where you want it to go.

Focus on health first because from one of your posts the overwhelming emotions from all of this has left you depressed and depleted. Make this work for you ..... you stop working for it.

Don't contact this woman heal and move on. Best of luck to you keep me up dated with your journey of healing and self discovery. WildChild , CW, IN-Need, myself, and so many others have great posts on here about healing from trauma. They are all in different stages and phases they are all a great help.

Thanks so much, Joy. I do need an outlet and will be looking into something that will be just that.

I will be serarching for the posts on trauma. Not sure where i will find it but i'll have a look.

Thank you for your encouraging post.

-Jennifer

Np Lost i wish you great luck in finding that outlet.... we can not change the past we can only make better choices in the future

Have a great day!

I asked him to leave and he left... walking.

It may be small things to him but they are HUGE to me...someone he has lied to over and over for a year and a half. He says he doesn't know how to lay it out there. I say if you love someone and want to have an honest and open relationship- lay it out there. How can i have a chance to forgive when there is an offense always in the way? How can i begin to build trust when there is not a sliver of foundation, it seems?

He wants us to go to the counseling appointment i made for Friday so she can sort this out for us. It seems only God can sort this mess out. It's far too complicated for me to comprehend and i'm not sure i have the energy to even know where to begin.

All of this emotional stress contributes to my physical illness. I can feel my body just stressed to the max. I can't get better if this is constantly ripping me apart. I'm not having a pity party. This is deep real pain.

My daughter will be 1yo. next weekend. I feel so much guilt for bringing her into our world. I could have made the right decision and made sure she had a stable home to come home to, but i thought it would be ok and we could heal and mend the relationship before her birth. Another bad choice on my part. She's so beautiful and deserves so much more. I couldn't imagine my life without her but i am so sorry for bringing her into this.

I have no one to talk to. So here i am typing this out hoping i'll find peace but all i can do is cry. This all seems like a horrible nightmare and i'm hoping i'll wake up and be freed from this. I know God has something good in store for me. I don't know if he wants me to be in this marriage or is he trying to tell me something here. I know i want to do right by God and keep my vows but how can i keep my sanity?

I have no idea what to think, how to think, where to think. This just makes me sick...