Thread: Can't stop thinking about my ex lover.

I need some help. I've been married for over 20 years. Have two boys. Not happy in my marriage. We have grown apart over the years, he loves me but I don't feel the passion or need for his love anymore. He doesn't feed my soul. 17 years ago I had an affair with a co-worker and feel in love with him, but he had his own issues and we aparted ways. He was always a good friend, a person that I connected with deep in my soul but I couldn't be just a friend to him. I loved him too much to watch him move on. I had to say goodbye to him. So I put everything I had in my family. Love my kids so much but not in love with their dad. I lived a lie.
12 years later my friend (ex lover) found me on Facebook. We have talked on the phone several times in just a short month. It's as if we have never lost touch. We picked up where we left off. (minus the sex) I care so much about him but don't know if I can be just his friend without falling in love again. I can tell he loves my friendship and we have talked about all the special times we spent together but we don't talk about the future or where it will take us. All this has made me realize the lie I have been living. My soul is dying. It's starving for a soul mate.
Do I keep living this lie for my kids sake...do I put my kids first and die inside? Is there a happly ever after? help