Thread: Serveraly Heart Broken and Confused women, Plz help!

I been with my partner for seven years now and we have a six year old son together. Things between us have never been that great but i have stuck it out because i love him dearly.
I work full time and he works too but only when he feels like it and he does not really earn that much leaving me to pay all the bills whilst his goes up in smoke and beacuse money is tight and i have bills coming out my ears i am struggling to cope without any support which cause major arguements.
Part of me really hates the fact that he just does not seem to want to help support his family hes happy for his family to support him.
He is on the computer all the time so there is no conversation between us also leaving me to go to bed alone whilst hes up most of the night, we never ever go out any where together, oh we have twice to the cinema and who paid suprise me. Yesterday i discovered that he has been calling and texting another woman making arrangements to meet with her and before discovering this he told me he maybe working an all day and all night shift at work now i get it!! I confronted him when i found out he said it was just a bit of fun, something to talk about with the boys at work, and how i just want him to die without any, i dont touch him. whatever that means. things in the bedroom department are not great, but what do you expect if i get ignored all evening go to bed alone, then get woken up out of my sleep for sex when he decides to come to bed when i got to get up for work in the morning.
He has flirted with other women before online though, and he slept around whilst io was pregnant. So I find it very hard to trust him is it a case of this one will never change? He always makes me feel like i am the one with the problem its my fault, is it me? We been through this so many times, i am broken cant stop crying, tired of fighting i hate myself have no confidence left and this time has made me really wonder if i can truely ever forgive and trust this man again, i love him but think its time to call it a day, but them i am confussed,someone plz help me with a little advice.