Thread: need help with my feelings

I am feeling so alone my ex up and left and took the kids with him and I new only ge tto see them once or twice a week I asked him whe ndo I get to see them and he keeps making things up I am so frustrated he use to say I love you but I guess I messed that one up by showing up a the park and tryed to talk to him and play with MY kids ages 2 and 4 he now does not say I love you and I am so hurt I asked him if its over and at the time he said yes I have cought him a few times saying I love you but now nowthing I say I love you and he just goes ok I am really hurt I have not slept in days and I cry all the time when I just think about him I love him so much and I want to call him. why do I still love him he has hurt me again and again with his words and I just keep thinking about him being ith another woman what if he already has someone . he doe snot talk to me as much so I have not called him I am giving him his space but its been since wends. since I say my 2 year old and my 4 year old does not want to see me . now I have to wait till maybe sunday because I have to work and the kids go to bed at 8 and I work till 6 15 and sigh I just really miss the family being together any ideas on what I can do please . try and be nice I am still very much in pain and my head is going around . thanks