Thread: why can't i get things right?

Me not trusting him completely is taking a toll on our relationship. Given my past; I was "fine" and not depressed or anxious when I was just "dating" It's when I fall in love and care for a person is where I start to doubt myself and the other person. He suggested that I had a choice to be in love and depressed/anxious or be "fine" and not be in love


I can't just "turn off" my feelings like that. I asked if he was indirectly breaking up with me...he said no. I asked him if he wanted to break up with me...he also said no. He did say that he didn't want me suffering anymore. He said he didn't want to break up; and neither do I ... but why bring that up if you weren't thinking about it.

I don't want to see him suffer being with me either. This isn't how I wanted things to be. He said what he wants isn't going to take overnight. And that is for me to fully trust him. I said if I didn't trust him at all I wouldn't let him go to strip clubs, and suggest to hang out with your friends. And call him all the time when he's in Vegas. I tell him he should hang out with his friends and go to a strip club if they wanted to. I am secure about my relationship when it comes to that. What I am not secure about is girls from the past and teachers hitting on him. What I am not secure about is myself. If I am enough for him. If I am enough for myself.