My boyfriend of 8 months is a very private person--too private, if you ask me. I, on the other hand, talk too much. I know that sometimes I share things which I should not, and I am trying very hard to stop. For the last three months, we have been doing the long distance thing--international, actually--and until we recently got skype we didn't speak that frequently. I went through a very rough period where I was very confused about the whole relationship, etc., and wanted him nearby so I could talk the whole thing out, and because of time zones and phone bills that was often impossible. I felt that I needed to talk things out, and as such confided in a few people. Unfortunately, I confided in more than one, and I am sure that some of the things I told would make him very upset if he found out. I want to tell him, although I think I will wait until I see him in person, in another month...I am afraid that he will look upon it as a betrayal, and that I will lose his trust. We are currently very happy, but I do believe that I would be a lot more of a wreck if I hadn't spoken to some people about our situation. I want him to know that I was unable to keep his secrets but also to understand why, and that I feel horrible about betraying his trust, and am trying so hard to correct that vice of mine...but I also want him to see that, perhaps letting people into your life a little is a good thing. I love him deeply, and do not want to hurt him or our relationship...HELP!!
When you are in a relationship, a serious and close one... there is a level of trust expected. Your partner is the ONE person you can tell it all to, you unburden your soul to them, all the things people have told you... all the ways you are feeling, all your secrets, a lot of your friends secrets..etc.
That is what makes for a strong bond, that one person that is your safety zone, betraying that is very harmful to a relationship. Now talking about how YOU feel about your guy is one thing, I think everyone does that to an extent, leaving out personal details of course... maybe telling a friend over dinner, wow he makes me so mad sometimes and this is why... etc etc, a little venting, normal. As long as you are not saying something that would embarass him.
Now if he told you something in strict confidence about himself or someone else and you betrayed that, that is...much harder to accept.
What was it you felt you divulged that is a betrayal?
Was it how you were feeling about him, or some sort of secret?
Scars remind us of where we've been...they don't have to dictate where we're going.
Bookmarks