Thread: Abandonment

Last Wednesday "T" was driving by, we go to the same dance school, she didn't wave. She called 30 minutes later. Said, "Wanted to wish you well." We spoke for 1.5 hours. After hanging up, she called again 2 hours later. I invited her to my place.
I did not address our breakup when she arrived. She was down, said she had been dreaming about me, thinking how she could be with me instead of watching TV.
I finally asked about her behavior on Thursday, why would she treat me coldly and breakup so easily. "T" said she was scared of love. Told me that when she behaves that way, to stop her and tell her that "everything" was going to be alright.
Well, short story, "T" stayed from Wednesday night until Tuesday morning. She has the key to apt, which she cleaned throughly. She cooked wonderfully all the days. Tuesday evening, she called and wanted to walk on the beach, we did. We also had dinner Tuesday night. Wednesday, today, we spoke and had a pleasant conversation. She answers the phone every time I call.
Saturday night, without ambivalence, she spoke out the words with complete clarity, "I love you." She looked at me with a smile and a radiant face and spoke those wonderful words I have been waiting to hear.
Now, I understand that the rollercoaster may continue. I feel she is faithful. I will continue to pray and hope that our relationship reaches consistency.
"T" indicated that she understands that our relationship is serious, that is what she wants. We are at a pinnacle. Let's hope for the best. Perhaps this diamond in the rough will shine soon. Patience is the key, love is the answer, with love nothing is impossible.
Ladies, spiritualness has been my mainstay. I did give up, left it all in the hands of divine intervention. It works. St. Joseph was the key. Google him, sorry to get this in, but it saved me a lot of heartache last week.

News, Saturday we were together. "T" was a bit cool, friendly but not her usual loving self. She stayed until 4:00 a.m. Didn't feel like hugging much. I asked if anything was wrong, she said all was good. She didn't call on Sunday. She left a message this afternoon, Monday, saying she would call later. I called her 2 minutes after her message, she didn't pick up the call.
Thursday is her birthday. Because she has a lot of friends, I suspect that she will be going from place to place...which is ok. This week will be an important week for me because I am interested in how she brings me into her birthday celebrations.
I'd like to say that when we broke up I felt relieved. But when she called a week later, she gave me 6.5 days and nights of heaven. I am thinking she came back because of need, not sincerity. She did state that she returned because of the realization of how serious the relationship was. I am beginning to feel the burden of this relationship. I do not know how much longer I can be with her. My old fashioned ways have me in a bind. Once I make love to a woman for 7 months, it is like I wish to work it out.
I will continue to hope for the best. But if she walks out again, I will not stop her.