Thread: Abandonment

we didn't drift apart, she simply disappeared. i think we were in an addictive relationship. i am certain if she came walking through the door we'd hit it off like there was no absence. she is confused about what she wants.

occasionally i go out with friends. i try to do it as often as possible. tonight i have dance class, unfortunately it is the school she introduced me to. all the same songs and dances.

but many other females are there and they have become friends. i am trying to move on.

yes i agree, 6 months will do it.

i haven't considered that because i enjoy the new friends i met. i believe she has abandoned even the school. she would show up one hour after my class, now she has even stopped that. the last time she showed up she saw me by mistake and wound up calling me and staying one week. i think she is trying to avoid a repeat of that.

i think she is having more problems with this breakup more than me because of her abrupt ending and her stopping the dance classes which she absolutely loved. it is so interesting, my thoughts are she is angry.

she holds grudges badly. when people do that they grow less and stop being the person they are supposed to be. anyway, i pray about it daily. sometimes i feel great, other days thoughts of her hit hard. this afternoon was a difficult. time, time is a good friend these days. i feel her less and less.

when i think of her i pray, i do this because it changes my train of thought. i bought art supplies so i am now back into the swing of creating. i do need to redecorate, her hand was in most of my place. she touched and placed things like her parents would, compulsively. slowly i am reclaiming my space. sadly, if i do, she is disappearing. that is what i need, not what i want. wow, what feelings do that commentar represent?