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Reply With QuoteMaybe they thought Jared was the best they could do and that he was better than nothing. Maybe they thought they would be able to change him into a better man. Who knows.Originally Posted by ThexMrs
Good job on deleting his contact information.
We can only learn to love by loving. - Iris Mudoch, British writer
Maybe they thought Jared was the best they could do and that he was better than nothing. Maybe they thought they would be able to change him into a better man. Who knows.
Good job on deleting his contact information.
Happy - That's funny. His ringtone is Mase and Total. (Tell me what you want from me, take a look at what you see, let me know if this right here, is something you could have for years) He doesn't even call so I don't even know why he has a ringtone.
Thanks Tex... I'm super lame though. I found his number in a notebook and text him. I told him it was his last chance. I have a cocktail party to go to on Dec 5th and I said that he had to come, no excuses or I was done. No response so... I guess I'm done.
"All the beats and melodies keep realities at bay but what happens when the records done and starts to fade away? Alone within myself again, I try to veil away my pain. The dirty grey surrounding me 'round..... And now I hear no sound."
Why do you keep trying?
Grrrrrr.....
You want a date beautiful? You have over 2 weeks to find one.. Go, get, do not pass go, kick Jarred to the curb.
See, your such a romantic soul, you listen to his music and assume that must be the way he thinks
And, this guy hasn't ever taken you out, you think someone as attractive as you can't replace him with someone that will?
Ahha.
Do we not realise that in order to find a soul
It doesn't happen over night
if truth were to be told.
Like everything in life that's hard to achieve
you must believe!
I don't know... Because I really do care about him. It was stupid but I thought it would work. It so didn't. He texted me while I was grocery shopping and said, "Hate me or love me, I don't like parties." So I said, "It's not about what you like. It's about you loving me enough to put your feelings aside for one night." He never responded. I hate that I keep trying. I'm better than this.
Yes, CW... I know. I only invited him because I wanted to actually do a group thing. All of my friends will be there and I wanted him to meet them. Truth be told, I'd probably have more fun without him there. I don't really want a date that night. I want free range on my actions. It's such a fun party. It happens at my girlfriend's house every first week in December. Oh well... I did my best.
"All the beats and melodies keep realities at bay but what happens when the records done and starts to fade away? Alone within myself again, I try to veil away my pain. The dirty grey surrounding me 'round..... And now I hear no sound."
Let's say Jared were to change magically. Highly unlikely but let's say it does happen. You two develop a normal romantic relationship then.
What would happen when Marty tells you he can move to Oregon?
I've gone over this scenario a million times because at one point (over the summer) everything was wonderful with Jared. Marty and I were just rebuilding our relationship. I was torn. I wasn't sure that if Marty moved here that I would leave Jared. That doubt has now faded completely. If Jared were to change, great but honestly... I think that Jared is just an inconvenient, convenience. (If you know what I mean) He's here and when we're together I love the time we spend but that's not enough. Jared is a 2 on a scale of 1 - 10. Marty is a 1,000. Marty is everything that Jared is not and more. He goes above and beyond what he has to. He's there for me, he loves me, he treats me great, he hurts when I hurt. He's wonderful.
I just got off of the phone with Jared. He called me. We talked for maybe, MAYBE 5 minutes and he got off of the phone. He said, "I don't want to talk about this right now. I'm not in a good mood." I said, "You never want to talk about it." Whatever... He just doesn't care. He cares more about himself than anyone else. I think I am finally ready to just let it go. He continually proves to be everything I don't want. I just wish I didn't care about him.
If anything, he'll be sex. That's it. I really feel like with what I am trying to do with Marty, sex shouldn't be in the picture though. Sure, it's a basic human want/need but I know how Marty feels about it and I don't want to hurt him. He's not hurting me. (Not to say that if he was, I would)
Today Marty said, "If I don't have a job by summer then I'll move out there." I don't know if he meant that or if he was just trying to appease my mother. (She had asked me to ask him that earlier in the day) It doesn't matter really... He has until October of next year and then I'm done with him if nothing has changed. He even agreed to the timeline.
Anyways, that's it... I'm a little upset but it's better to be upset now than a year from now I suppose.
"All the beats and melodies keep realities at bay but what happens when the records done and starts to fade away? Alone within myself again, I try to veil away my pain. The dirty grey surrounding me 'round..... And now I hear no sound."
then you are not cutting of contact and you will eventually be back where you started with him.. he will still be getting from you what he gets now and you will be getting even less from him than what you are getting now..if that's possible (shakes head)If anything, he'll be sex. That's it. I really feel like with what I am trying to do with Marty, sex shouldn't be in the picture though
a smart man learns from his mistakes..a wise man learns from the mistakes of others..
Do you plan on stepping into his shoes?
I said that sex shouldn't be in the picture because of Marty. So, more than likely, I won't have sex with Jared. I care a lot about Marty and if it were to hurt him to know that I was having sex with Jared, I wouldn't do it.
"All the beats and melodies keep realities at bay but what happens when the records done and starts to fade away? Alone within myself again, I try to veil away my pain. The dirty grey surrounding me 'round..... And now I hear no sound."
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