Thread: should i call him !!!

hey iwanna to say ma problem briefly, first sorry for ma bad english bt am nt an native speaker ,
idumped wiz ma bf from one week ago ,and it was ma decision bt iswear it is because our country's tradtions.
the problem now that iwanna go back again and itold our common friend to tell him that ,he accepted but under one condition that ihave to call him first.
ok idunn have problem to say sorry bt ijust feel that ill lost ma selfsteem infront of him if icalled him and thats for akind of revenge to him.
itold our friend to tell him thats am sorry and icouldnt live wizout him and all the talks that he want to hear
but idont feel comfortable to his insist to call him not he call me
ialways feel that the man should pay alot to bring his love back, bt as ifelt from him since we have broken that he doesnt care about me he just care from the way idumped him and how much he have hurt.
he didnt call me to bring me back although iwas waiting him to call .
he told ma friend thats am who end the relation so ihave to fix it and when she told him that iwouldnnt call he told her me either !!
ifeel that he doesnt care so itold ma friend to tell him that illnever ever call and then am waiting him to call bt iknow he wouldnt because he know that icouldnt live wizout him once.
so wat ihave to do to call him as he want or just waiting him and see how much he loves me becouse i start to have doubts about that
ialways know that when u dumped wiz aman he followed u everywhere bt icant see that in ma story