Trixies, this is so unhealthy. Its obsession, and technically... its stalking. 4 years is a long time. It sounds like he's moved on with his life and you are creating alter ego's to be connected, even if only to cause yourself misery and pain. Therapy is CRUCIAL. I really think you need some counseling... this sounds like depression, and a very very unhealthy fixation with the past.
You loved him, but somewhere along the line you have to learn to close that chapter in your life, take those memories and put them in a shelf to dust off and look at from time to time as you remember your life... but not to focus on them on a daily basis.
You need to turn to friends and family for support, you need a hobby and to develop some interests and to get out there and be social. You need to delete that fake facebook account and stay off there on your other one... for a good long while until you gain some distance and perspective.
I am very sorry for what you are going through, all the lonliness and hurt -- but you see, this wont make that better. You're just going to keep sinking into a deeper and deeper hole. Please turn to some friends, please talk to someone.




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