my heart is in a million pieces...

**kygirl** · 10-09-2010 04:56 AM

More details later but J broke up with me last night. Everyone I know, including me, was shocked. I woke up still just trying to remember that it's real but part of me is numb at the moment.

**Texinator** · 10-09-2010 06:23 AM

WOW!! That seems completely unexpected. It sounded like things were going so well.

I'm so sorry to hear that, ky.

**Hopeless Dork** · 10-09-2010 07:31 AM

I'm sorry honey. The heart in a million peices feeling is one I know all too well, probably everyone on here has had that feeling at one point or another... and NO ONE envies that pain. But there is one thing anyone that has had it knows for sure: it WILL pass. That is NO comfort when you are in the thick of it... I know that, but I do hope you find some comfort in the fact that everyone here thinks you are an amazing woman that deserves to be happy, that everything in our life happens for a reason and that no matter what happens with this guy... you're on the path you're meant to be on.

**WildChild** · 10-09-2010 08:08 AM

Hugs to you sweetie. I know how painful that is, I've been recovering for months. You will get through this, cry your tears, take all the hugs you can get and take care of yourself.

**lonestar** · 10-11-2010 09:53 AM

I'm sorry, girl. That's rough. Just remember to love yourself. Try to think of this as an opportunity to do something you've always wanted to, but wern't able to because you were tied down...after the approprate grieving period of course. I know it's hard to focus on much else right now. Watch a good flick. Sometimes it makes me feel better to watch someone else have a worse day than I'm having...

**KMonte85** · 10-11-2010 09:59 AM

I'm so sorry, ky. Breaking up is hard enough, but I think its even harder when you're blindsided by it.

I wish you all the comforts in the world right now.. Take care of yourself!

**Beautiful Disaster** · 10-11-2010 12:59 PM

My heart is heavy for you my sweet friend. There will be better days. I promise.

**Lunar Keiki** · 10-11-2010 02:02 PM

I am so so sorry. I know there isn't anything anyone can say to make it better, but I just wanted to tell you that we all have felt that pain. I hope the coming days and weeks are gentle with you and you are able to get the love and support you need from all of your friends and family.

**kygirl** · 10-12-2010 07:10 AM

Okay sorry that it took me so long to come back around. I've really been kind of just getting through the days the last few days. I don't know that I'm feeling better. The more I think about it, the more hurt I am that he handled it the way he did. I know some of it just due to how he is (not as emotional as I am), but I've never had a breakup that seemed so cold. It was only towards the end I could hear emotion in his voice...yes, he did it over the phone...

Basically the short version is that we went with a big group of people to eat Friday night for a friend's bday. I was a little aggitated bc I had a big meeting the day before and he managed to update his FB but not send a text or something to ask how the meeting went (it was involving my school stuff)...anyway. When we all left the restaurant he seemed distracted. We hugged and as soon as I got home I ended up texting just to ask if he was okay. I never even imagined it might have been about breaking up with me

He was being really cryptic. THen he called me and right after the hey he said "I don't want to date you anymore.". All I could spit out was an okay. Then he said something along the lines of "well obviously you're not that upset about it". I was like "no, I'm shocked." We went on and I found out he'd been thinking about it for 5 or 6 weeks?! He never said anything. He also introduced me to his mom during this time which I really wish he hadn't if he was already thinking it might not work. I don't know.

I haven't heard from him. My friend Andrea emailed him to see how he was doing. She knew I'd want to know but she didn't want me having to do it. He said he was doing fine and not to worry about him.

I am feeling so many emotions right now. I seem to cycle between sadness, frustration, confusion, and anger. It's hard to believe it's really true. Part of me knows I'm going to get through it. Part of me is just so over trying anymore.