I am sorry you are in so much pain.
I have moved this to your own thread as the one you posted on was well over a year old.
I am sick very with anxiety panic attacks for the last 11 yrs i have not been able to get better at all no doctor has found what is wrong. Last night oct 18th 2010 i found out my husband was cheating on me he said he was looking for happiness and was not happy with me anymore and we got in a huge fight and he left. I am breaking i want to die this hurts so bad i need to die. I want him to love me forever and want to be here with me and to not be there. I want him to see we can get through this is that we can stop fighting and learn to share and love each other. I want him back forever..please help me please!!!! pray!!
I am sorry you are in so much pain.
I have moved this to your own thread as the one you posted on was well over a year old.
We can only learn to love by loving. - Iris Mudoch, British writer
Is your anxiety driving your husband away? What were the reasons he gave for not being happy?
Oh dear... I'm sorry you feel this way, I really hope you get through this. You know, there are things you can do to help curb an anxiety attack if you feel one coming on, you just have to learn to recognize the symptoms. Look it up or ask your doc about it. Secondly, you need to talk to your husband about what's going on and how it's making you feel. Try couple's counseling, AND individual counseling for you to help you deal with and manage this. Good luck.
How can you see where you're going if you spend your whole life looking over your shoulder? –Naughty Ninja
Sorry you're going through this, but I and MANY others here can tell you, it WILL get better. You need to acknowledge that to yourself and remind yourself that whether you have anxiety or not, feeling heartbroken right now is NORMAL. Let yourself feel what you're feeling, and KNOW that it will ease up, get better, and eventually it will pass. When you feel like losing your husband is worth dying over.....stop, take a big deep breath, and call someone you can talk to whether it be a friend, a family member, a hotline, etc. Call someone to talk it out with for that moment. Deal with it moment by moment.
Are you taking anything for the anxiety? If not, I would highly recommend going to your local WalMart and buying some SAM-E to try. Google it, it's natural...something your brain produces, but some people don't produce as much (therefore have anxiety). SAM-E sort of supplements what you already produce to increase those levels. Give it a try. Can't hurt, right? It won't help the heartache, but will help the anxiety.
Have you tried therapy/counseling? When did the anxiety start? Can you pin-point it to a specific time/event in your life?
Giving up is not the answer. You're WAY too good for that. And anxiety or not, you're WAY too good to be cheated on. There is no excuse for that. Your husband took a vow "In sickness and in health", there is no addendum that says "In sickness and in health....unless the sickness lasts too long. Then it's okay to go cheat". No....it's not okay. Don't tell yourself that it is.
Tina, the sadness your feeling is overwhelming. It's time to tell yourself, you will find the answer and in that, your husband will see a different woman..
He has maybe tried to be brave and has stood by you, through the fighting, through the anxiousness, or he has helped cause it.. Only you know that answer.
You have to believe in you, you have to believe that you can do this..
What do you do when you become anxious? What has the Doctor's recommended so far? Where do you live? Has it stopped you living, stopped you going out, stopped you making friends, work, ...
We're here.. We're listening.
You don't want to die, you want to LIVE... Talk to us, tell us more about yourself.. You have friends here.
CW
Do we not realise that in order to find a soul
It doesn't happen over night
if truth were to be told.
Like everything in life that's hard to achieve
you must believe!
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